Husband passed away

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My husband passed away Tue 5th Aug, 

since being told end of April  he only had 12 months, Paul never recovered from his 4 fourth round of chemo (this was a 1 st of stronger chemo) spent 3 weeks in hospital with a kidney problem, dehydration & temp spikes (couldn’t locate infection) had a stent put in his right kidney & I had to get him out of the hospital because of his anixety , the care was awful, & that’s another story. He came home & we couldn’t control his pain, St Luke’s hospice & his dr was helping, then his legs just kept giving way & they took him into St Luke’s short term ward to sort out pain relief, he went down hill so quickly, the care for him was fantastic &  caring, not just for Paul, but for our 3 girls & 4 grandchildren. 
he was surrounded with the people that loved him the most, when he passed awsy, I’m  so lost & empty at the moment. Prostate cancer is so invasive & the government should do a lot more to pick it up early & let you men have quality time. For 18 months since he was diagnosed, all we did was have hospital appt. He was 63 & we’d been together for 46 years m, married for 41 years 

Gillian 

  • Your sadness is our sadness but we will be here for you whenever you need us.

    Talk to anyone, talk to us, talk to professionals and your family and friends.

    You are correct in what you say about early diagnosis and it being an easy and cost effective procedure, but for all of us with a diagnosis at stage 4 and few treatments possible - except the hospital intensive and dreadfully life changing and debilitating stronger chemos. It does feel like your tethered to your local hospital and there’s no escape.

    Please keep talking and suggesting and venting here amongst friends. We know some of what you’ve gone through as the worried wife all that time. My Darling suffers as much as me, and like you, has no quality time with me either. I don’t know what you’re going through but I sympathise with your life partners passing.

    Cry, talk and cry again. We will listen.

  • Hello Gillian

    i am so very sorry to read your post and send you, your family and your friends my deepest condolences. It sounds as if Paul tried so hard to stay with you but this horrible disease was relentless in its progress. May he now rest in peace. 

    <hugs>

  • Thank you 

    Paul fought until the end, & it was much quicker than expected Cry but he’s out of pain. Were the ones hurting now Cry

    xx

  • Hello Gillian ( I am so 

    I am so sorry to read of Paul's death - please accept my condolences and if there is anything we can do for you or your family please do let me know. I agree fully with your comments regarding the Government and they should be doing more to diagnose prostate cancer early and give men a better chance to be cured.

    As a Community we are all here for you - to vent if you wish or just for a chat. 

    We do have a group you may wish to join to chat to others in the same situation as yourself and here's the link:

    Bereaved spouses and partners forum 

    Please do let me know if we can do anything for you at this time.

    Kind Regards - Brian.

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  •   - I’m so saddened to see this news Gillian. As other have said, we are here for you to hug virtually and to listen. Stay strong for your children and grandchildren; I’m sure Paul told you this whilst he was in the midst of his almighty battle. What a warrior he was - I’m sure that you are so proud of him. Treasure those 40+ years of marriage. I’ve been married 42 years, so my heart truly goes out to you, as I can’t imagine your pain. I literally have tears in my eyes as I type this. Be strong.  Head up. Be brave.  Bless you.   AW

  • Oh Gillian. I’m so sorry to learn of this news and for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at this most difficult time Pray

  • Hi Gillian,

    I am so sorry to read of Paul's death - please accept my condolences.  It sounds like he fought bravely and at least he is no longer suffering.  Please look after yourself and let us know if we can help.

    Best wishes, David

    Please remember that I am not medically trained and the above are my personal views.

  • Hi Gillian

    My thoughts are with you during this difficult period. Thank you for sharing.

    Kind Regards 

    Munster

  • Sending condulences and hugs to you and loved ones