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That all makes perfect sense, for the cancer we have little control over from a physical side but we can steer our recovery by using control tools. I under went a year of mental health treatment and for me the first thing i did was write my journey up , i now have a 70,000 word document with warts and all in it. That help me deal with the trauma and compartmentalise it.  then i took to walking 3/5 or 10 miles a day , but every day pushing to the limit.

Then I got a tattoo - something I could do to my body that i have control over. Then we discovered travel. We now take 3 oversea trips a year to far fung places and travel in style. Yes we are fortunate to be able to do so but we save hard to enjoy it.  But still after all that i am haunted by penile cancer - every day , many times a day i am trust back to my darkest most horrifying times. The misdiagnoses, the pain, the amputation, the treatments , the effects and the reality of nearly losing my life. We can never fully forget but we deal with as best we can.  Its a long and times lonely road as those around us can see the hurt inside.   keep up the good work.!  

You mentioned a misdiagnoses, my doctor told me I had a STD, thankfully my wife and I totally trust and believe in one another. I dread to think how many men have suffered through this type of misdiagnoses.

Yes had an "infection" and a 3 month wait for urology to be told that's no infection. So common unfortunately.  I even had palpable node in my groin but that was dismissed. Turns out it had extracapsular spread and went to my pelvic nodes.