Hi Everyone,
Sending loads of positive energy to everyone effected by this. My dad is struggling and it is a mixture of infuriating and heartbreaking to watch.
We are on round 3 of chemo, He is stage 4, inoperable 
Some days we can feel positive and he has more energy. A lot of the time I feel this has mentally taken hold. He stays in bed, doesn’t want to face life and it’s hard to see but also I just want to pick him and make him fight just that little bit harder.
He just can’t eat!!! How long can this be sustained is my greatest fear. The tumour is there and the pain relief is helping him but he struggles so much to eat anything at all
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We had 2 weeks in hospital recently and I feel the fear of going back is worse than dealing with some of the issues for him.
This type of cancer feels so morbid compared to others and I know we all have to be stronger and not surrender to it and keep fighting and finding hope in everyday.
Knowing people can relate in some way offers it own kind of support so thank you for being in this online community and to anyone reading my rant.
