just realised I'd not been in here myself since just before my OP...good to see some familiar faces still offering great advice n support ...sad to hear that Lady P has left us...she was a very inspirational lady 
for those that don't know my story...I was diagnosed with PC last July...told far too big to be operated on so started chemo in Sept ...a scan late Nov showed it had shrunk so they stopped chemo in Dec to get me fit enough for the OP.
Fast forward to end of Feb and I was admitted for the Whipples...10.5 hours in theatre later I woke up with more tubes in and out of me that I would ever have thought possible (note here...I was told I was so unfit at my preop fitness test that I'd be days longer in hospital if I even survived the op...I was scared witless at that point but being as how I was deemed to have no chance without the OP it was more a case of 'Hobsons choice '
I spent 3 days in the HDU then onto surgical for another 5 days...then I was told I was going home on day 8 
I was bloody terrified of going home...hospital felt far safer...but...after one ward lock down for flu...then one for D &V...home began to look much better lol 
Surgeon wasnt too confident he'd got it a cos my tumour had wrapped itself around the main vein to the bowel so I had an anxious 10 days waiting to be told if more chemo was needed...and a phone call from the nurse coordinator confirmed an oncolgists appointment was on it's way...
Finally gets to see the surgeon...who greets me with a massive smile on his face...tumour on removal was a T1...no signs of spreading...checked 20 odd lymph glands n nothing had spread...he queried might not need any more chemo...but check with oncologist
Finally saw her 2 weeks later...first time I ever seen her smile so much...to be told...go away live your life...no guarantees it wont come back... but for now...you're as clear as we can tell ...she did add back last September they'd classified it as a T4 tumour and inoperable...and I'd surprised all of them 
all I can say is...I think I'm glad no-one told me that...and as bad as it got...the chemo did it's job
to everyone fighting this God awful disease...I'm thinking of you.
To the people on here who support everyone and offer kind and encouraging ...you are amazing and helped me when I've been frightened and scared
thank you xxx
Hi Rox55
What a wonderful inspirational letter Your courage, bravery and successful outcome is a joy to read. I'm sure it will give much hope to others who are facing such awful times regarding this evil disease. Very good luck for the future and as was said to you 'Now go live your life.'
Geoff999
At the end of all our journeying will be to find ourselves back where we started knowing the place for the first time. TS ELIOT.
thank you ...just wanted...hopefully ...to give little back
cheers Squeaky...
and thank you for all your support and advice...both to me and to everyone else
you're a star 
x
aww...ty Splodge...and again...thank you for your kind words an encouragement when I first got on here ...you too are a star
Rox
x
hi all....not been in here for a while and not been getting any updates for some reason...suddenly I see a couple....not sure what happened to the rest lol
thought I'd add to my story so far......
reality is....that its so far so good...diet seems to be sorted unless I forget to take my creon...(and my body soon reminds me if I forget...anyone else wish they'd got shares in a loo roll company )
I've started back to work on my phased return at the mo...only done one full day....and that was yesterday and I was absolutely cream crackered...rest of week just mornings so I'm feeling much better right now than I did yesterday ...hopefully stamina will improve n I will get back to full time...though the though of 60 hour weeks doesn't actually fill me with joy...then again I'm 63...64 in Nov...n if I cant cope...I have the option of taking early retirement so there's always that!....and considering a year ago I wasnt expected to survive this year...I'm definitely not grumbling
hoping everyone is as well as they can be ....love to all of you...
this site is amazing for all the help and support it offers
thanks Kevin...n good luck with the rest of your chemo...the fatigue is awful isn't it...think I spent 6 months doing very little with no energy at all and I only finished up having 8 lots when they decided to try the op and thankfully didnt need anymore after
Retiring is still a possibility...I think if I could get my government pension early I certainly would but thanks to the change in pension age I have to wait til I'm 66 for that one so for the moment...and the morgage...I'll try n keep going...but will be putting my health first from now on...n if it all becomes too much I shall definitely stop working
Best wishes to you ...I hope all goes well
