Awaiting results- scared

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Hi all,

hope this is okay to post.

Over the last two years I’ve been to the doctors several times for losing weight, floating stools and fatigue. They never tested anything else as my Vitamin D was really low. 

fast forward to a month ago I’ve started experiencing full pain that comes and goes in my upper abdomen, radiating around to my back with occasional bouts of acute pain on my right hand side. 

After seeing a tiktok about someone with PC who had all the same symptoms I went to my GP who ordered a CT scan which I had on Saturday but I’m terrified of the results. I’m also awaiting a blood test for diabetes as I have symptoms of that too 

I’m just so scared. Everywhere all I see is bleak statistics of people with PC and I’m only 26. Especially regarding how most people only have symptoms when it’s advanced. I’m trying to think positively but I keep having nightmares that I may only have a few months left. All I read on charity fb pages is people being diagnosed and passing away weeks or months later. 

I lost a pregnancy in September and got through it thinking I will be able to have another at some point but now I’m really scared I may never get to be a mum. 

I’m sorry if this sounds dramatic but I really am heartbroken. I keep overanalysing every ache and pain and I’m just so scared. 

Positive stories would really help me right now 

  • It's natural to be scared when your symptoms go on for weeks and very soon you will have an idea on why you have this pain.  It could be other things such as gallbladder irritation as all the symptoms are the same. I hope you can think really positive thoughts to stay upbeat. My friend had similar - light stools loss of weight, dark urine, sharp pain right side radiating to her back and had an op. ( she was 60 ) and she was right as rain again very quickly. Stay positive. 

    This is a good site to put your fears onto it really helps 

  • Hi,

    thanks so much for your kind response, really appreciate having someone to talk to about this.

    the pain is also on my left side and not severe but more dull and achey, which to my knowledge would exclude gall stones? I know I could be wrong though.

    I rang the GPs today to ask for any update and to chase a Covid vaccine I’m due and they said the report is there but the GP needs to review it which has made me more worried as if it was nothing sinister I would have thought I’d be waiting a few weeks for results, not days.

    I can’t understand why if my results are there and showing something sinister that I’ve not been told. I understand they’re very busy but something like this just seems strange to wait around. 

    Sending so much love to anyone in this position and totally agree this site is invaluable, it’s so nice to speak to other people who understand as my partner and family don’t really get it. 

  • There are a few similar things to you I've experienced. I too miscarried my pregnancy in a September one year, and by Oct the following year I gave birth to my little girl. So don't think your dreams of becoming a mother won't happen. She's all gown up now with a son of her own. 

    On holiday in the UK I was in agony with osophagus pain, no tablets would stop it. I too feared the worst. Hospital tests sent to my Dr. They suspected ulcer and gave me brilliant pills to stop pain immediately. I waited from Dr and eventually rang. To be informed by receptionist only Dr can diagnose tests and get back. I was OK about that info as to me 'no news is good news'. 

    Comparing my brothers situation, for his PC -he got his first phone call to "go straight to hospital for tests.  It was on an immediate conveyor belt of tests every week practically and I'd like to think your Dr's or Hospital tests are just as efficient as that. Keep positive. Try and be patient. 

    For Covid jabs most Pharmacies in my area give the Covid jabs. I just rang my local one and had flu and covid at my chemist's shop. 

    Hope your feeling a bit brighter.