Possible recurrence

Hi Pink Flamingo 

I have just come across your post and want to reach out and give you some support.  I am sorry you are going through such a really difficult and incredibly worrying and anxious time at the moment.  It is awful waiting on scans and their results and having to manage the unknown.  I have been in your position almost 1 year ago and for me the cancer did recur and i found once i knew this  and knew the plan, which for me was more Chemotherapy, i could move away from the fear to some extent and refocus on treating it and how to constructively manage this - today i am in early Remission.  You can read my profile by clicking on my name.

I am guessing your scan was today? So now you will be waiting for the results and i am sure you will be having all sorts of thoughts and feelings while you are waiting.  It is difficult to stop the mind going into overdrive at these times.  I find breaking the time up into what i can manage rather than focusing on what i can't one day, one hour even one minute at a time helped me to cope with all the uncertainty.

I just wanted to show there is a light to reach for and hope for better news for you.

All the best

Thank you so much for your kind and thoughtful words. I am pretty petrified. I sobbed like a baby in the MRI unit today. It just came from nowhere. I suddenly felt overwhelmed. The wait continues........ as dies the anxiety. X

As DOES the anxiety. I really don’t like modern predictive text. X

You are more than welcome.  Cancer is a lived experience and I find it really does help to talk this stuff through especially with those who tread this path.  Crying can be such a release at times as we can hold too much in that ends up overwhelming us.  How long before you get your results?  Please let me know how you get on.

Take care and best wishes

X

Hi. It is a recurrence. I’m devastated 

Hi Pink Flamingo

I have just seen your post and I am so so sorry you have found yourself in this situtation.  I know this news will take you some time to process.  When you feel up to it do come back to the group if you need to off load and/or have any questions as people can support you through this. 

In the meantime, take lots of care of yourself.

Sending you Hugs in abundance X 

Hi ourgirlinthenorth. Things are difficult. My consultant is going to ring me on Monday. I hope they can do something for me. My husband and I are really struggling to cope with this news and we’ve had some very difficult conversations over the last few days. I am very grateful for your support-I’m going to need as much support as I can get over the coming weeks and months. X

Hi Pink Flamingo

You are caught in the middle of knowing and not knowing right now which is a very difficult place to be as the mind gets up to all sorts of tricks in these places.  You now have the outcome of your scan but now you need to know what is next because then you can work on getting your head around it and working with a plan.  Although conversations are difficult it is constructive that you and your husband are talking about this as you will be able to find a level and a way through to dealing with this together.  Draw as much support as you can around you now.  I have always found the Community and incredible place for support which has helped me enormously and constructively and still does.  Please post if you need us also you can private message me any time you want.

Please let me know how Monday goes, you and your husband are very much in my thoughts.

Take care and Hugs and best wishes xxx