My mum was told she had myeloma after a fall which resulted in a broken tail bone. She is a few weeks away from her 90th birthday and says she just wants to die she has refused chemo and steroids and now the pain meds arnt really helping. She refuses to go into hospital and wants to die at home. We are all ok with this but everyday she is on the phone to me crying about her pain but refuses to take all of her pain meds as they make her a bit dizzy and she is scared she falls and breaks a bone and ends up in hospital. I don't know how to deal with any of this she has a carer who goes in every morning to help her have a shower and I go down in the afternoon. There are no nurses or doctors seeing her at home but she goes to the hospital once a month I don't know what her prognosis is as they dont seem keen to give us one so I don't know if she is nearing end of life or if she has a year or so left. I'm not coping at all well with any of this I am an only one so it's all on me. She doesn't seem to understand that seeing her in tears all the time and wishing she was dead really upsets me. Sorry for going on so much but apart from my husband there really isn't anyone else to moan to
