Melonma

You have had 5 years of being poked prodded and monitored, it’s natural you feel the way you do, now that safety net is gone. There is no reason why you can’t keep in touch with anything cancer support related including this site.

There is also the Maggie’s Centres, they offer counselling which might help with your transition. If you don’t have one near you, they offer telephone counselling.
I can imagine you might feel a bit bewildered now that you have done the physical fighting. Although nothing prepares us for the emotional rollercoaster, I think I would feel pretty bewildered once it actually stopped. This is bound to take the shine from your success.

I truly hope you start to feel better soon, remember there are others here to prop you up, so glad you reached out, it’s a difficult thing to when you feel the way you do xx

Thank you so much for your reply it means alot to me xx

I have just been diagnosed with grade 4a nodular melanoma skin cancer on my face.  Have had the mole removed but still have some left.  I’m booked into Preston hospital on the 23rd June and I have to be there for 07:30am to have radioactive dye injected into me followed by various procedures then under general anaesthetic the rest of the grade 4a nodular melanoma removed together with some grade2 cancer which isn’t melanoma but it runs across my cheek and face.  My anxiety is through the roof because I was only given the all clear in April having had to fight Endometrios cancer.  My last chemotherapy was in January.  I’m scared stiff of dying and I can’t function or sleep.  Waiting for CT scan results to see if it has spread ... anyone else been in a similar position as me???  My anxiety is through the roof and more xxx

Hi yes It is very hard to get your head around. I was in a similar situation as yours. Read my profile if you want to  I am also under Preston hospital and mine started back in 2010. I am at present having 6 months scans and get my results of the last one on Tuesday I do suffer from anxiety waiting for results but try to keep busy. At present I am on holiday and will have to find a quiet place to take the call.  Mine did spread but with immunotherapy and targeted treatment I have been clear of the disease for 2 to 3 yrs now. I will be scanned till 2027. The people in Preston especially the skin specialist nurses have been excellent and supportive. My advice is take each day at a time. Be kind to yourself and don’t wear yourself out especially when having treatment. Rest when you need yo and go out for a walk. I felt walking gave me peace. Ask for help when you need it and don’t bottle your feelings up. I do wish you well and will be thinking about you. I felt the whole team in Preston were very kind and supportive.

Hello and thank you so much for your reply.  Please can I ask if it was a grade 4 nodular melanoma that you have?  My anxiety is through the roof for the results of my CT scan on Tuesday x

No but it was stage 4 I get my results of ct scan also on Tuesday by telephone. Keep busy and things may not be as bad as you expected. 

Thank you so much for your reply... I really hope you have the scan results you deserve... good luck and enjoy the rest of your holiday bless you x

I hope your results were good today... my scan results are on the system so I’ll get to hear where my cancer has spread tomorrow morning

It is tomorrow afternoon I hear by a telephone call. Hope you have good news tomorrow. My fingers are crossed for you. If I have any questions I ring the specalist skin  nurses who have been able to but my mind at ease.

My skin specialist nurses are called Angela and Nicola I doubt I will sleep tonight