My husband

I'm so sorry you're going through this, it might sound so stupid but breathe and check in on your nervous system. None of this is fair - you already know it. And it's so easy to fall into a trap of feeling cursed and like this is happening to you. Unfortunately our time comes - whether we like it or not, in ways we can't control. 

I lost my father to prostate cancer in a year long battle that completely ruined him and myself, as a young 25 year old - this is something no daughter should see, or his wife (my mother) for that matter.

All you can do is your best. Please breathe, go for walks and most importantly cry if you need to. Feel it all. To witness someone wasting away is the worst. To truly see someone so active fall into despair and not be able to do anything is horrid - your feelings are valid. Try your best. Sometimes you don't need to be strong. It's ok to crumble.

Make sure you ask for help around you and don't carry this burden on your own. 

Watching the morphine process is also heartbreaking - just know that it is helping and you are an angel for being there.

Sending Love

H