Hi all, newbie here.
My mum (79) has recently been diagnosed, we have a meeting next week for staging/a plan. While I am thankful for the speed, it's all happened so quickly, from suspected bowel cancer which was clear, lung cancer was picked up, it's been a month of phone calls/appointments.
Mum is in complete denial about it all, her coping strategy I guess. I am more of a realist, with some medical knowledge.
I am aware how utterly selfish I sound, but I am really struggling, physically and mentally. There is no other family, no siblings/dad/extended. I work FT in a mentally demanding role, and a single mum. The practicalities of appointments has been tough, but we managed. I am naturally a practical person/a planner. Now I am coming to the realisation, the journey is only just beginning. Like I say, in terms of the practical side, as well as the realisation my mum is ill, and I will lose her one day. I feel such an awful person with my feelings. Obviously I will do anything for my mum, and I will keep strong when in front of her at all times.
Sorry for the rambling, I guess it's good to get feelings out with people who may understand.
I also told my grandchildren who see me every week what was going on with my health. At 10, they are much better knowing IMO, than hearing whispers. It just creates extra stress for them. It was also my opportunity to mention not smoking or vaping.
I’m Silly me, I pressed go before thinking! I’m wishing you all your family the best. Please do write back if you need.
With love Daisy xxx 
