This is my first proper post in this group, I’ve copied this from from my profile to introduce myself and say hi to everyone.
I was diagnosed last May with Stage 2B non small cell lung cancer (Adenocarcinoma). I had a lobectomy in June followed by adjuvant chemo, which I had from Aug to Nov. I have been given the all clear and although I am better physically than I was, I have still have fatigue, neuropathy kicking in again, a cough and joints that need oiling lol!. I find emotions are harder to deal with tho and it’s like I’m permanently trying to keep balance on a wobbly fence, it’s exhausting!
My dad, brother and one of my sisters died from lung cancer, I was lucky, I was diagnosed early and I am grateful for this but now... guilt sneaks in because I’m still here and they’re not. I know this will pass, eventually, plus I have another sister who often reminds me that she still lives n breathes (she’s a brilliant big sis). I also find myself in emotional conflict, to the outside world I’m “cured” but... inside I’m still stuck in cancer mode.
Lately its become more difficult to talk to my husband and sis about how Im feeling now, I’ve tried to explain but they just don’t get it. It was easier when I was actually being treated, it was a more a physical thing then too. Anyway, I decided the other day that I needed to speak to people that have been though what I've been through, so I could talk without having to censor what I feel. So here I am..
Hi Carole. That is really good news to hear that you are now cancer free. You have to remember though, that you have been through an awful lot in a very short time. You need to take time to process what has happened. Remember it is ok to not feel ok all the time.
It will be good to have you around in the group to help others that are only just starting their journey, so I hope you stick around.
Take care.
