Hi. Not been here for awhile as have had 3 major operations so far this year. Only came out of hospital 4 weeks ago after having bowel/abdominal surgery. All went well.Recovery going good but slow. Then got a call yesterday from my specialist nurse saying I have another lung nodule so will need a chest xray to see if they can ablate it.Apparently it's small but it still doesn't make how I'm feeling at this moment' tearful' scared I just don't know what to do.
This disease is just full of surprises 
Sorry to hear this news, and who needs it? But they seem to have this lesion removal thing pretty much down to a routine, minimally invasive and quick recovery if it goes to plan.
Scared myself ATM, though in no way going through what you are - I scribbled this - not sure if it helps and not sure how it continues, but anyway:
Scared
I have no words to scream how scared I am
No abstract painting in blood red, black and acid yellow
Would tell you the feeling in the pit of my stomach
No music could ever be loud, crashing and discordant enough
To describe the tautness of my nerves which have me jumping at each sound
