Feeling alone

It's me again I dont get this feeling in the morning. I wake up feeling really a bit hopeless.. I'm scared and lonely..

Mornings are the worst for me. I wake up scared and lonely feeling. I have 5 kids and no one to ever visit with. The 19 yr old that lives with me stays gone says it's better that way. I dont think she realizes how lonely I am or doesn't care. I'm just moaning she probably does. I just dont have anyone but here to chat. I am trying everything everyone suggests but sometimes it doesnt work. I dont k ow what to so to make it stop

Just me replying to myself. I dont get how I even mess up here on this site. I may put stuff each day and it may sound the same but it isnt as its another day. I cant seem to get anything right. 5 kids and none of them want to be around me so I dont have to be scared and lonely, I get my son hes the only boy and believe he sat with me last night for 2 hours it was nice.  I am rambling but idk what the heck else to do.. 

Hi frazzled, I have read all your messages, and understand how lonely and scared you are feeling, I have had my operation, and I did not need chemo, I have a great husband who is very supportive, but sometimes there are still days of feeling lonely. That is because they do not fully understand the journey you are on. It is like being on a trip together, and whilst you move, everything around you is taken in, where as others with you are just there looking straight ahead. They cannot see what you are taking in. This does not necessarily mean they don’t care, it just means they are not able to understand how you are feeling. Please talk to someone though, a specialist, kids are kids and even though they are not young, some don’t fully understand.

I've just been diagnosed with lower left lung cancer. Tomorrow I have a PET scan and medics keep asking who's going to be with me. No one is. Are you sure you have no one, yes I'm sure I have no one. I get you being lost, I feel like a lost soul too, and scared. It isn't easy, you sound like a great Mom, raising 5 kids, I hope they learn to appreciate you xxx

I am so sorry to hear that. The pet scan isnt to bad. Mine was horrible because the now 19 yr old was 18 at time and u cant be around anyone 18 and under for 8 hours. She was so ugly to me like it was me making that rule..well no ones perfect and I'm far from great I just refrain from throttling them all over the yrs. The youngest is 17 and in college and applying for uni in Scotland . I get the lonely and lost thing to.. but here is a good place and their support line is ok to for peeps to talk..