Hi all, I’m new here.
Im 32 years old and my poor mum is 50. She’s recently been diagnosed with non small cell - adenocarcinoma. She has approx 3 tumours in her right lung measuring between 2.5cm and below and then some small scatters…it also effects the lymph. She has a small 0.3mm tumour to the left lung too. At the minute her symptoms are just shortness of breath she’s struggling to walk distance but can breath fine whilst sat.
we are still waiting for oncology, we’ve been told it’s inoperable and incurable but she will be able to have chemo, radio or immunotherapy….her samples have been sent for molecular tests.
when I say I absolutely beside myself it’s an understatement. I have 2 children who absolutely adore their Nan and put to now I haven’t told them, I’d rather have a proper plan beforehand.
I can’t eat, I can’t sleep I can’t even function. At one point I considering dying with her. I know this sounds extreme, I would never do that to my children, but I cannot lose my mum. Literally I can’t. She’s my best friend the only person I have. We are a small family she’s my rock.
this morning she’s not great, she feels abit sick and it having sweats.
I don’t even know what I’m trying to achieve with this thread. I know her life expectancy isn’t great, I’m a nurse and know some things and I’m realistic. But the pain is unbearable and I can’t see how we’re going to get through this. I hate the fact she’s sat in her own dark thoughts thinking of us.
I would do anything, I’d even give her my lung if it was an option.
I suppose im hoping for someone to come along and say “I had this a lot worse and im here 20 years later!”, but I know. I know il get to 35 and say I don’t have a mum. And it kills me
