I was diagnosed with lung cancer in December 2021.
I have had excellent treatment from the NHS. 6 doses of chemo and 30 radiotherapy, completed in March 2022. Since then I have had three CT scans, and each one showed that the tumour was shrinking. At the last scan, the radiographer and consultant said that there were only small 'specks' showing, and they couldn't discern whether they were scarring, dead cancer cells, or something else.
They stopped short of saying that they weren't cancer, but seemed optimistic. I have my 3 month check next week. It is just an x-ray this time, and fingers crossed that I am still ok.
So, everything looks as if the treatment has been very successful, and I am one of the lucky people.
But, I am so depressed, and I don't know why. I should be elated that I am still alive and relatively fit. But I can't seem to see many positives in my life, and that makes me feel quite ashamed and ungrateful.
I am 68 years old, and have a lovely wife. I do worry so much about the worst happening to me, and leaving her to cope on her own. We don't have any children or close friends, and I worry about her future alone.
Any comments would be welcomed.
