Hi I have kidney cancer the I was diagnosed over a year ago and after some messing about,delays and going to London to see about cryo therapy I've recently seen a specialist anaesthetist and it's been decided I'm too hight risk for an anesthetic as I have several other health problems so i cannot have surgery to have the tumor removed  so I've been told I will have sabr( radiotherapy)  witch is just palliative care  I'm 58 I live alone I have a son I see once a wk mostly I don't really see anyone else it's pretty lonely dealing with this alone if I'm honest and pretty scary fortunately it's only small,so I'm lucky atm I just feel scared that there's no options but palliative care really any thoughts or comments welcome and I hope you're all doing ok