So ive just recently finished my first year of Immunotherapy, the consultant optioning to go for surveillance and hold off further treatments for now given the prevalence of side effects I have developed. I have found that I have had to manage this battle on my own more or less, yes I have my family here, some have been great, so not so much, but I havent been able to talk to anyone about it in person, and phone calls often got disturbed. Where I live there is no Macmillan nurses close by , there are some where I got treatment and some at the local hospital, both places are reached by public transport and when I was in treatment I was provided patient transport services.
However ive not been able to access these, am suffering with chronic fatigue and couldnt manage the 1hr long journey to either of these places. I had a long search for local support groups but there are none and find myself in a support desert as such and its hard as for me I need to speak to someone in person at times and I dont know what to do.
Ive spoken to my oncologist team and my gp and they both mention the places I just have, which leaves me in tears, as I find myself struggling more now my immunotherapy has completed this 1 year. I feel cut adrift by the oncology team, even though they will be still watching for signs of cancer return, and the same for my GP but I feel more alont now than I did at the beginning. the uncertainty and waiting is getting to me and I cant talk to my family about it as they cant cope with all, and I dont have any friends that I can talk to either (for context I only recently got home after surviving severe domestic violence for over 15 years so lost contact with alot of people and was isolated for along time so in person contact means a great deal to me now)
Im not sure where to turn to, my assigned cancer nurse is never about for me to get solutions for tackling how I am feeling.
Hi mythicdreamer, I know how you feel about being alone, my story is different as it's my husband who has the kidney cancer, all my family just stopped talking to us because they didn't know what to say , I told them to not talk about it just be there and treat us as they always did but that fell on deaf ears and I haven't heard from them just when we need them the most. What I will say as from the cancer point , you are in a really good positive position, YOU BEAT cancers arse , it didn't get you , ok so you need to try to tell yourself that and that you are strong and it won't get the better of you. Now I would go back to your doctor and tell him that your not really coping, maybe a prescription for antidepressants will help you feel better so you can relax properly untill you feel better so you can get out and about , also tell your family that you need to be able to speak to them about it as you feel so lonely and isolated , I really hope things get better for you but please speak to your doctor and your family xxxx
Hello mythicdreamer, I am so sorry you are feeling so alone, I have my husband and children here with me-(I was diagnosed last month) I have had a few family members stop by but like you some don’t know what to say so they keep their distance. I know it’s hard to ask for help but maybe send a group message to all family members expressing what you want from them. I find it easier to write than to speak when asking for help. That being said I also feel very alone and scared and don’t know where to turn to. For me it’s the wait and the uncertainty. I was told that I would have the op to remove my kidney by mid November but I still haven’t heard anything and when I called to find out the what was happening I’ve been left waiting for a response - third day now with no reply. My mental health is really suffering too. I have enlisted in my local talking therapies and they have been a massive help in terms of listening to how I’m feeling. Ask your gp about the local talking therapies contact details. It really helps to talk and cry about what you’re feeling without feeling you are burdening/upsetting your family. I usually feel a lot better afterwards. I find the nights are the most difficult when I’m with my own thoughts (that’s why most of my posts are early hours of the morning) but try to be kind to yourself xx
Hi Mythicdreamer
your posting struck me as being very sad, as I'm sure it did everyone else - all of us have been through worrying times, either personally or with a member of their family (in my case, my wife). There's not much I can suggest, except to say that pauses in treatment are quite common, and usually come about in response to blood tests which show treatment is causing more harm than good. Once your blood levels return to somewhere near normal, I'm sure everything will get back on track. On family contacts, I have a large family, being the eldest of 9 children, but my wife made it clear that she didn't want everyone phoning up to see how she's getting on. They all care, of course, so I keep them up to date from time to time via email. I would persevere with your efforts to get in touch with your Macmillan nurse - we have found them very helpful.
Best Wishes, Bodger
Good morning Mythicdreamer, I hope this morning is a good one for you. I feel so much for your problems it must be so lonely. I have incurable Liver Cancer and am on palliative Immunotherapy and have been for 15 months now and the indication is that I am doing well. I have not been given a time limit but the general consensus is that it's 2 years so I do have a while to go yet
There must be something you can do and I would ask a friend to deal with anything that upsets you to such a degree you just cannot do it yourself. It is the responsibility of your Cancer team to help you with appts. etc. and most if not all Oncology Depts. have volunteer drivers to get you to appts. and by talking online is a great comfort to me. I am with Basingstoke and North Hampshire Oncology unit and even though I live in Berkshire they are happy to treat me and so a supervisions job. I always know what is going on and I can ask any questions as I know they will be answered. Another thought is do you have a Macmillan Nurse ? If not, get one they are especially trained and knowledgeable about problems and are great at helping to solve them in a calm and friendly way. I feel so useless as I would love to help you to feel better about things so I shall keep looking out for your posts to see how you are. God Bless you
Jackie ( Mrs Green is just to formal and I'm trying to change it )
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