I spoke to my nurse for the first time today and I have my Op on the 20 th march . She told me I had jumped the queue as my tumour is 14 cm and needs to be taken out ASAP . My tumour is still confined but pushing in the wall of the kidney . She also told me that I might well need more ‘immune’ treatment as she put it after . I am glad that they are doing my op quickly but am just a little low today as it seems I will be on immunotherapy straight away and it seems reality is setting in on my prognosis . I do try and take the positives aswell but it was a tricky day at the pre op yesterday as my wife got upset quite a lot when I was being checked over as I think it all started to look real for her too . All my stats were good yesterday and I have been told to expect a 5 day stint in hospital . I am a very upbeat and positive person historically but that guy has gone for a while . My family are fab and I have 4 great kids and my wife and I have fostered over 50 kids and we still see a lot of them so I couldn’t be more loved and sometimes that makes it worse when you lost control of your life a bit . I think after OP I will get into the right state of mind .
