Feeling really low.

Low mood? Definitely something a lot of us will, and still do, experience... but there's no easy answer, Maggie's is a good place to visit and get support, help out with Macmillan fundraisers, join a local support group? Ask your GP about local support groups and activities?www.maggies.org/.../

Izzy1984 said:

And now I feel like I will never recover and be happy me. 

Hi Izzy. You will

You post a fair bit about how impatient you are and that is at the root of how you feel. Honestly these feelings will pass but for the moment it’s important to remember that your mental health can take a long time to recover. We suffer from PTSD to some extent. 
Have a read if this piece by a psychologist involved in cancer care. It resonates with a lot of us 

workingwithcancer.co.uk/.../After-the-treatment-finishes-then-what.pdf

Hi Izzy i think once we have the diagnosis we will always be hyper sensitive to changes that we notice. I know im now paranoid about any ache or pain or lump and bump.  Its only natural. Your low mood is to be expected we go through a challenging time physically and mentally and also dealing with the loss of your friend , its a hard time for you.  I know what you mean about antidepressants, I feel the same. Have you thought of asking your dr for counselling. I went to my gp upset and felt very anxious when I was diagnosed , he put me in touch with a mental health counselling service.who for a few sessions spoke to me over the phone, it did help a little , but then they passed me onto online therapy which didn't really.   I believe though there are a few charity based ones. Could you go private, my son under different circumstances  a bad road accident  had  private sessions  for ptsd and said he felt so much better even though he went thinking it wouldn't help him . It help him deal with his feelings rather than remove them , he only said the other day that I should consider it when im ready. I do believe the best thing its to talk. I hope you find something or someone who can help, i think someone mentioned Maggies, not sure where abouts you are but theres a charity in widnes called sams diamonds origionally for breast cancer suffers but now reaches out to any cancer sufferers . Im sure there will be others offering support too

Tracy xx

Hi Izzy,

It is so difficult to deal with this aftermath, you were so courageous to go back to work so quickly. I am contemplating this myself and I am quite scared of doing so. I found very helpful reading the psychologist's article via Dani's link she also provided here, I hope you will find time to read it.

I also found counselling helpful, I accessed some through my local Macmillan but also in the past through my GP. I also didn't want antidepressants and you don't need to go down that route. You need support as what you went through was very difficult and you need time to recover. You also lost your friend recently, to cancer. 

It's not always going to be like this. Like you, I was a person with a positive outlook but when I got the diagnosis and realised what I had to go through, I felt it all changed for me. But this person is still there. And maybe we won't be the same but this might bring a new quality to ourselves. Once we recovered.

Rose x

Sending hugs. You have been through the blumin mill  can you speak to your employer about taking some Moore tI’me off?? I’m sure if you explain that you’ve returned too soon they will understand. They may be able to offer counselling through their workplace insurances. Is this something you could ask about??
You’ve been an absolute warrior and taken everything that’s been thrown at you. My husband has been the same. At some point, it all gets too much. I think a break from work and everything else that is going to look after yourself would be good xx

Thank you, I will read through it but I'm on lunch break and I know I will be crying if read it now, so have to wait until at home.