I am SOOOO frustrated

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Last night, I cooked myself Mr. Brains faggots with mash potatoes, mushy peas and a jug of extra gravy (just in case).

It felt truly awful on my tongue, I think I managed half a dozen tiny mouthfuls. I'm so upset, frustrated and almost depressed (not a joke, I do suffer with depression) by this, having been a big food lover (as I think we all are, to some degree).

Sorry, just felt the need to rant a little there.

I had my 3rd session of acupuncture yesterday. I had convinced myself that my tastebuds and salivary glands would kick start into working a few hours after said session. How wrong I was...

  • We are all different I couldn’t touch mash potatoes first almost 2 years far too grainy. Try sweet potatoes they can be easier. Mushy peas like wise claggy faggiots  never had them but mince took me a long time tk be able to eat.  
    acupuncture takes time ur doesn’t work for everyone. How far out if treatment are you ? 

    hazel 

    Hazel aka RadioactiveRaz 

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  • I’m 4 months out of treatment for orophangeal cancer

  • Hi You may nit  think it but it’s early days in the scheme so f things. 
    im 7 years out and can eat most things apart from spicy. It doesn’t   happen over night but give it a few months and improvements start. I went along the lines that nursery food helped me if a baby couldn’t eat it I took the line of thinking that it wouldn’t go into my mouth either poached eggs smashed avocado home-made soup  cheap white bread toasted was easier than artisan bread  It’s all try  if you can’t eat one week try again later like I said earlier mashed potatoes were big no no for me for a good time but sweet potatoes very easy .

    treatment does a lot if damage and takes time to recover  tea and coffee dehydrate alongside alcohol  remember that  I have a few coffees but mostly herbal tea  I’m the oddball i have  ni tolerance for alcohol can di alcohol free Guineas or beer. My oncologist said alcohol in moderation but no spirits  

    just keep trying we all recover differently  I managed a small Christmas dinner 4  months post but derived no pleasure the following year was much better 

    Hazel x

    Hazel aka RadioactiveRaz 

    My blog is www.radioactiveraz.wordpress.com  HPV 16+ tonsil cancer Now  6 years  post treatment. 35 radiotherapy 2 chemo T2N2NM.Happily getting on with living always happy to help

    2 videos I’ve been involved with raising awareness of HNC and HPV cancers 

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  • I know we can all get frustrated as we all would like things to get back the way they were. 4 months is still very early stage. Take little steps at a time. Try to re-introduce new food regularly and if it does not work, try again in a few weeks time. I only started eating again over 3 months after my treatment as I had mouth ulcers. After that in the first year following the removal of my peg, I stuck to very simply food : mash( sweet potatoes) , avocados, yogurts, milkshakes, part boiled eggs, mousses. I regularly introduced new food and tried again a couple of months after if unsuccessfull. 

    You will get there. 

    Slight smile

    Fab1

  • It takes time and perseverance to kickstart our appetite and taste. We do get frustrated, and depression can accompany the frustration, but things do eventually improve.

    A rant now and again is good for the soul, most of us have had a rant or two somewhere down the treatment/recovery line.

    MickyMac