Scalp/Nose BCC

Hello

i went to my GP in early summer. She gave me an urgent 2 week referral to dermatologist but unfortunately the dermatologist got it wrong. Said ‘ doesn’t look like cancer’ and she gave me a bottle of shampoo and some ointment which I use for two weeks. One out walking with my husband. He mentioned that it was odd that the dermatologist hadn’t understood the word pain and so I rang pals and they booked me in with the consultant dermatologist who took one look at my scalp and said it was a BCC6 weeks elapsed since my initial appointment and I went to see the surgeon for the first visit a few days ago, where he diagnosed another BCC on my nose. I didn’t like his attitude very much because he looked at my scalp and said “it’s a good size!“. It seems to have grown a lot and I’ve had quite a lot of pain with it, but I don’t have any options regarding surgery because of its size  so it’s only a few days since I realise that I have another PCC on my nose and I’m finding it a bit difficult to cope because nobody I know seems to want to actually talk about how I feel. I don’t have a Macmillan nurse but I find it really important to talk about my feelings regarding the whole thing, not just a diagnostics and not just the  medical side but the emotional side too. The fact that I’m going to be losing a lot of my hair at the front of my head obviously worries me and although I know unfortunately not need chemo I’m still sad thinking about its loss and now I’m going to have an operation that will cut into my nose and leave a scar , it’s all happened so quickly! Looking back at photographs I can see the beginning of the BCC on my nose. Has anyone else had an operation to remove a large BCC on the scalp? I’m not sure if I want to be awake or asleep during the procedure