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Hi All, I just wanted to introduce myself as I joined this group back in December but it took me until yesterday to fill in my profile. My name is Carol and I’m 64 years. I was diagnosed in June 2020 with cT0 N1 M0 P16 Positive Squamous Cell Carcinoma in the neck of Unknown Primary and underwent chemo radiotherapy which finished at the middle of August so I’m now just over 5 months post treatment. Other groups I’ve just joined on here are the Secondary Lymph nodes cancer Forum as It was discovering a lump in my neck which at first I thought was a swollen gland that actually turned out to be SCC in the left lymph node in my neck. I’ve joined Unknown  Primary Cancer (CUP) group, as my primary has not been found, the Oesophageal cancer group as my radiotherapy was targeted to the oropharynx and bilateral neck area, the Lymphoedema forum as I have developed Lymphoedema in my neck and throat area since I had the radiotherapy, but have an appointment at the Lymphoedema clinic next week to see if they can help. Finally I’ve also joined Cancer chat.  Like others on here I too suffer with lack of saliva, salty taste in my mouth, tinnitus, weight loss, crazy hair, Lhermitte’s (although there only seems to be a few of us with that side effect) but the two things I struggle with most is my enjoyment and love of food has gone and whenever I feel a niggle in the area I received the treatment I think the worst but I know that that is something I’ll have to learn to overcome. However on the bright side when I look back I can see that slowly things are getting better it’s just the usual story I’m too inpatient. Anyway here’s to being a member of this wonderful community. 

  • Hi Rhonda welcome to our small community yes food is the bane of most of our lives it does get better I am now 30 month almost post radiotherapy for tonsil cancer with several affected lymph nodes. I had acupuncture to boost my saliva production am sure it kick started the process. I still use xyimelt s at night and sip some water. Food wise it’s still early days for you but any questions pop on am sure someone will get bsck to you. We have another member Zarasmum she is also c u p being treated at the moment in Spain where she lives. I will send her a message saying another c u p  I’ve messaged her she’s in treatment tidsy so will contact you in a few days  

    keep in touch Hazel xx 

    Hazel aka RadioactiveRaz 

    My blog is www.radioactiveraz.wordpress.com  HPV 16+ tonsil cancer Now  6 years  post treatment. 35 radiotherapy 2 chemo T2N2NM.Happily getting on with living always happy to help

    2 videos I’ve been involved with raising awareness of HNC and HPV cancers 

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  • Hi Rhondda welcome to the forum.

    I am not much different in terms of time of treatment to you, my treatment finished in september- tonsil cancer with spread to one node

    Much of what you describe is very familiar - i had lymphoedema too and have similar side effects to you. I also get a throbbing at the site of the original tumour which makes me paranoid.

    Anyway as you say things will improve for you as time goes on! I cover everything in absolutely tonnes of gravy (i have a jug of it next to me when i eat) and just sip water if im finding the food hard work.

    I also find that although meat is traditionally a tough thing to eat i can both eat and enjoy stews that have been slow cooking overnight (the meat literally dissolves)

    Trev

  • Hi Carol and welcome to our small but imperfectly formed group.I am Dani and I am two years out of RT for base of tongue SCC.

    Can I just say what a valiant effort you have made with your profile. Thanks you very much. It is so helpful for people, down the line from your introducing yourself, to be able to answer any queries you might have. At a glance.....or maybe a few....phew!! they can see your history.

    Five months, while out of the acute phase of your recovery, is still fairly early so take heart that all the things that you miss will return to tolerable levels and you'll be able to enjoy your food again....I promise.

    I have a tingly fizzy feeling down my back into my bum when I bend my head down which I have put down to "mild Lhermitte’s" though I must admit I have never done anything about it.

    My saliva has been vastly improved by time, chewing sugar free gum and acupuncture and as it happens I have been talking to somebody about lymphoedema just yesterday and I have put a short post of simple exercises up in my blog today. There is an entry on acupuncture too if you are interested. There is a link at the end of the post.

    We have a member who has been in your position of a CUP for some time but they eventually found it. You could check out his profile. There have been a few others too who have all been treated as if their primary was in the oropharynx and they are alive and well and living their lives. My point is that the oncologists are good at what they do so trust them. 

    Do keep in touch and let us know how you get on

    Kindest regards

    Dani 

    Base of tongue cancer. T2N0M0 6 weeks Radiotherapy finished January 2019

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  • Hi Rhondda

    I was treated for base of tongue (oropharyngeal) cancer in June 2018.  I too suffered with L'hermittes although it has improved over time.

    Not being able to enjoy food is certainly something I find very difficult but again, certain aspects have improved including taste and saliva.  Just remember to keep experimenting.  Something that was difficult to eat one day might be better a week later.

    I'm glad you're able to look back and realise that things are improving to where you were and they really will continue to do so.

    Pleased you've found us and all the best in your continued recovery.

    Linda x

  • Hi Rhonda

    Best wishes with your ongoing recovery as it does take a while and a lot of mental adjustment to get used to the ‘new normal.’

    My cancer was not the same as yours but same as you one of the biggest things I had to come to terms with was how to cope with food.

    Same as you the enjoyment was not there anymore.

    I have recovered quite a lot of my taste but still have lots of things that no longer taste right. I am 8 years post my first radiotherapy and now 1 year post my last radiotherapy. I have converted from being a passionate tea drinker to a drinker of milo (it’s something like ovaltine if you don’t have milo in the U.K.) and have had to consign lots of other foods to the too hard basket mainly because of texture, dry mouth, lumpiness and having to mainly work with pureed food.

    It took me a while with the help of the forum to work through how to manage the food issue so it did not get too boring. You can only eat so much scrambled egg, pureed baked beans and yoghurt.

    I now trawl recipes for possibilities of pureeing them and when I go out I carry homemade soups and Fortisip with me and always have an eye on the menu to see if there is anything I can manage and mostly find something.

    I used to get a bit down about it but now enjoy watching what others are eating and smelling the aromas. I even make up imaginary menus of what I will eat that day. Just ways of helping me get my head around things.

    Everyone is different in their recovery and my story is different to yours. Don’t get down heartened about the food issue. Over time things will improve for you and you will find a substitute for anything that does not taste quite right.  As Linda said keep trying different things as one day you can’t manage it and a few days later you can.

    Best wishes

    Lyn

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  • Hi Rhonda

    As Dani mentioned I also have an unknown site from my primary.  Similar story to you with how I found mine.  I have been like that for just over a year and get regular checks.  I know exactly the feeling of every lump and bump needing to be checked and my team are great and they see me at the hospital with the relevant consultant ASAP and never think I am being stupid.

    I never "progressed" past surgery for my tonsils and RHS lymph nodes being removed.  They are keeping the "big guns" back in reserve.  Actually I am quite happy with the watchful waiting process my hospital have me on - aside from the scoping, that I hate.  That said I am so lucky with my hospital.

    A scoping 2 weeks ago found a growth on the base of my tongue where they thought the primary probably was hidden.  I had a panendoscopy last Wednesday and a biopsy of the site.  Results next Thursday.

    Zarasmum, as Hazel, mentioned is in a similar place and we occasionally private message each other for reassurance.  Feel free to message me. 

    I think it is a perfectly natural feeling of anxiety that we have when the primary is not found.  It is quite possible that the radio and chemo have dealt with yours, but the issue, I think, we have is the not knowing.  It is difficult.

    Glad you're slowly feeling better.  Don't let up on any checks they may offer and hassle the hospital if you feel you are not getting the attention you deserve - Covid or not. 

    Peter
    See my profile for more details of my convoluted journey
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    FormerMember in reply to RadioactiveRaz

    Thank you for your welcome RadioactiveRaz. I’ve tried Xylmelts but can’t seem to get them to stay up on my gum, they have a habit of sliding down on to my tooth, but I do use Oralieve dry mouth spray though which has been a Godsend. I’ve noticed a big improvement during the night already. Whereas I used to wake up with a mouth like the Sahara desert and my tongue stuck to the roof of my mouth, I’m now just needing to take a sip of water 2 or 3 times a night  and the same with Oralieve.

  • Hi no problem don’t give up on xyimelts what I do is with sharp knife on brown side cut in half and just use one.  I found a sip of water before to moisten mouth then pop it in hold for 30 seconds. Boots also do a dry mouth spray in handbag size bottle worth a try it’s peppermint but not strong. ask anything we will always get back to you 

    Hazelx

    Hazel aka RadioactiveRaz 

    My blog is www.radioactiveraz.wordpress.com  HPV 16+ tonsil cancer Now  6 years  post treatment. 35 radiotherapy 2 chemo T2N2NM.Happily getting on with living always happy to help

    2 videos I’ve been involved with raising awareness of HNC and HPV cancers 

    https://www.instagram.com/merckhealthcare/reel/DBs8Y0niJ8N/

  • I’ve tried Xylmelts but can’t seem to get them to stay up on my gum, they have a habit of sliding down on to my tooth

    That doesn’t matter. They will stick to a tooth quite happily. Mine often do. 

    Dani 

    Base of tongue cancer. T2N0M0 6 weeks Radiotherapy finished January 2019

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    Macmillan Support Line -  0808 808 00 00 7 days a week between 8am-8pm

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    FormerMember in reply to TrevW

    Hi TrevW nice to chat to someone who is at about the same amount of time post treatment as myself. I’ve found that my whole diet has changed from what I ate pre-diagnosis to now. I was very much a savoury person who adored cheese and crisps etc but would never choose a dessert, pudding  or cake etc,. Now my absolute love and craving for crisps and cheese has gone and been replaced by a need for something sweet such as a cake, how crazy is that?! 

    Had a bit of a downer for a couple of hours yesterday as I could feel that niggle in the area again so went down the “ what if it’s not worked route”, but today I’m over it again.

    Anyway continue to enjoy your stews, I’m going to try faggots and peas tonight.