Can someone please interpret the top letters/ numbers.

I can’t help with this one 

It could refer to Carbon 14 which a radioactive isotope of carbon that’s used to track tumours but it’s only a guess, You need to be ask your husband’s oncologist or clinical nurse. It certainly doesn’t appear to describe the cancer or its prognosis in any way so stop worrying about that. It might even be simply a filing category for the system. 
The scan is coming up in a couple of weeks. Just hang on. 

This bit I've already explained to you

If you are looking at the numbers on the left of the page "ICD-9 and ICD-10" they are just simply clinical codes that are applied to the diagnosis/treatment/outcome.  What they do is provide a standardised way of representing the free text that is written down.  The NHS can then analyse the diagnosis, treatment and outcomes at a national level and come up with information such as SCC HPV+ has a 90% curative response to treatment etc.

These codes are standardised by WHO so, in theory, should be used uniformly across the world.  That's the theory, but in practice it is not.  I am not sure why you are seeing ICD-9 coding as the NHS is not supposed to use that any longer.  Potentially your hospital has a legacy system that has to use those codes and is then translating to ICD-10.

I know. I’m stuck on this worrying crap. As I said before he was a smoker and I dunno if he’s sneaking any when I’m not around. I know he’s had a few beers now and then too. This is justifiable worry. I know I cannot do anything about it but it’s still hard.  

markmac said:

This is justifiable worry

It is in your mind but as you’ve pointed out it’s hard for you. 
Your husband has been through an awful treatment. I’m sure he understands what the effects on his recovery drinking and smoking will have but perhaps that’s the only way he can cope. If that’s the case he is the only one that can do anything about it and I’m afraid the truth is that you will have to learn to live with it. 
Say in a years time he has made a good recovery from the cancer despite a return to his old habits. You would have wasted a year of living substituting it with worry. 
I'm ok with being a “bad cop” here because I’m trying to help you. I lived with an alcoholic husband ( I’m not for a minute suggesting your husband has a problem) and I know you can’t make them look for help. My husband had RT for laryngeal cancer. He refused to stop smoking and drinking. The treatment failed and he had to have a laryngectomy. At least that stopped him smoking. 
He lived a good life for ten years after his op but couldn’t give up the booze which eventually killed him. 
So I do understand your trauma. Please look after yourself. You can’t be his whole life. You have one of your own. Get that counselling. 

I really appreciate all the help and input you have given me. I e been to counseling it doesn’t seem to help me. But believe me I do what I can to help myself. It’s just very hard to change. It all began in my childhood.  I had anxiety at a young age.  ️️️️

markmac said:

. I e been to counseling it doesn’t seem to help me.

That is a wonderfully courageous first step. Don’t give up on it. Counselling is an ongoing therapy. I have an anxious daughter She has therapy every week. It keeps her level. I do sympathise. 
Meanwhile don’t give up. Keep your questions coming. None of them are silly. I can read the despair in some of them. We, all of us here, can pitch in with replies and explanations to help you through. 

️️Thank you.  I am very aware of the help I need. It causes me depression and anxiety. I cannot live my life without wondering if my husband is doing what he should to be healthy. It kills me. I wish I cd get some  kind of reassurance from him. I feel out in the cold. 

markmac said:

I wish I cd get some  kind of reassurance from him

Does he know this? Does he realise how you are teetering on the edge? Does he read your posts here? Would he consider counselling together? 

He does not read my posts here. He knows how stressed and worried I am. His response is I worry about everything. When I ask for reassurance he does tell me he’s not hiding anything. I just hv a hard time trusting. 

And no to the counseling.  He’s a stubborn guy.