Gutted

Jako said:

Feel I’ve really let myself down

You haven't

Just start at zero again. Throw the stuff away and go for a walk 

Do you have a mate who would be willing to mentor you...talk to you when you feel you need to pick up that vape

Your oropharyngeal mucosa will FOREVER be fragile easily letting in armful chemicals...I'm sure you know that 

Yeah I appreciate how bad it is. It’s only when I have a drink

I gave up smoking twenty years ago and the only time I ever missed it at first was when I had a drink....funny isn't it that there seems to be some sort of connection. I am of an age when you could prop up a bar with a pint in one hand and a fag in the other

As Dani says don’t beat  yourself up.  But do give yourself s good talking to maybe ask gp for patches. Find another distraction to do with your hands maybe a stress ball. 
good luck fir next football game. 

Hazel 

OK all try again. My reply disappeared , eaten by the forum algorithm 

I gave up smoking twenty years ago and the only time I missed it was when I had a drink. It's funny that there seems to be a connection between the two. I am of an age when you could prop up a bar with a drink in one hand and a cigarette in the other

The 2 definitely go hand in hand. I stopped smoking 5 years ago but it was replaced by vaping

Just keep yourself busy try the stress ball hide it in your pocket if you  don't want your mates to know. Like Dani I gave up over 20 years ago. I’m old enough to  propping uk the bar with cigarette in one hand drink in the other. Even smoking at work asking customers who came in did they want a cigarette!!! I was a travel agent petty cash used tj but cigarettes tj hand tj customers while booking g holiday. Plus  back rows of plane were dedicated smoking seats. Imagine that nowadays. 

Hazel x

RadioactiveRaz said:

Just keep yourself busy try the stress ball hide it in your pocket if you  don't want your mates to know.

OMG Hazel. What on earth would that look like??!!

Oops never thought of that one !!!!!  Ok yes stress ball but not in your pocket it’s about distracting your hands instead of reaching for vape. 

Hazel 

Hahahaha brilliant. That’s given me a good laugh