I posted a couple of weeks ago regarding my newly diagnosed cancer and got a great response and advice about my worries.
I had my appointment yesterday for my mask fitting, which I managed even though I am claustrophobic. Problem was in the CT scan after when it had cooled down.
After trying a couple of times to get through the scan I had to leave as I had a complete meltdown and couldn't wear the mask any longer and exhausted myself from crying.
They have prescribed a sedative as I have to return tomorrow to do the CT scan and there needs to be a re-fit as it wasn't fitting my chest area properly.
I am now at a low point after being so positive and dreading tomorrow and the 6-weeks of treatment as really don't know how I am going to get through it 
I feel so embarrassed and babyish but don't know what to do - any advice which helped anyone in a similar situation would be great?
Try with the sedatives and ask them to cut eyeholes in.
practice lying on your bed with a towel over your head. Play a couple of tracks of music you enjoy and that will probably get you through the few minutes of treatment. You can take your music in for the radiographers to play. It gets easier as you go on with just the first few times being the hardest before you understand that nothing awful happens.
Remember your radiographers can see you all the time and can stop the machine as soon as you raise your hand and be inside with you in seconds.
Dani
Base of tongue cancer. T2N0M0 6 weeks Radiotherapy finished January 2019
