In June I was referred with a rapidly growing lump and some irritating white spots on the under side of my tongue to Maxillofacial, in July I was given a biopsy, in August the words ‘malignant tumour’ entered my world and on 2nd September I was led into the operating theatre and underwent a glossectomy with tongue flap reconstruction and removal of lymph nodes … Home now for 2 weeks, struggling to eat, sleep, desperately trying to comprehend, reason, accept, believe, understand all that has happened, is happening and is yet to happen…?? I have an appointment this week to discuss the ‘margins’ and required radiotherapy…
I was a happy, content, confident, independent and strong 56 years young, woman, and now all I feel is lost, lonely & utterly terrified by my future? I don’t recognise myself anymore, physically or mentally and really struggling.
