So I booked July 11 as a weekend /few days to go visit my cousin up 
️ n Tandragee Northern Ireland. I’ve always wanted to visit here around this time — heard a lot from folks about the bonfires and parades etc and never thought too much about it. Figure this year I’ll take a bus up, visit with my cousin and see what it’s all about. She assures me it’s all a racket so I’ve got a hotel for a couple o nights so can leave and go quiet if it gets too much. And I booked a further few days at one of the “on the beach” hotels in Blackpool for a few days in August. Small things — but within the UK so I don’t have to deal with customs and can just hop on a bus and take it easy.
And I don’t feel much different. Though maybe it’s the “choosing” to live and see what’s after this phase. I’m wrestling with myself right now. When they ask me how I’m doing today (think it’s the weekly review thing) do I be honest and say I feel like shite, colours coming away that might not be good colours to have there — struggling to keep anything down etc etc and risk being kept in again — or do I just say I’m fine — and get through the next few days best as I can.
I don’t want to be kept in. But it would be nice to keep something down.
Hi BabeRuth. I would tell them how you feel. OK if you have to stay in for a few days.....so what! After what you've been through a few days is nothing if they can stabilise you. I spent one New Year in hospital for just that. I had a window bed. The hospital looks out over Swansea Bay. I watched the fireworks on The Mumbles and shed a few tears missing home but I got through and they let me out on my birthday.
Do it. Get fixed and look forward those trips. They sound absolutely wonderful and by July you'll be a different person.
Have a look at this article once you're more in the land of the living. It's probably too early just now as it won't resonate at all but it will.
After the Treatment Finishes....Then What?
Good luck
Dani
Base of tongue cancer. T2N0M0 6 weeks Radiotherapy finished January 2019
