We found out my husband has a tumour blocking his oesophagus and stomach joint, most of his stomach also has cancer and metastasis within the tummy cavity . He has been given a prognosis of 12-18 months. I am trying so hard to be positive but I’m struggling with dark thoughts, often thinking is this the last time we will do…… We are 2nd marriage and have only been married for 10 years I am feeling cheated. We have just finished renovating our bungalow and retired to enjoy it. I feel selfish having thoughts about things that affect me. I don’t know how I will deal with this when he is in the end stages. We have discussed funeral arrangements and staying at home to die but it feels like just random conversation rather than actual plans.
sorry for the rant but took the opportunity to be honest about how I feel. Thank you if you got to the end x
