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No need to apologise for sharing your feelings here. In fact I can't think of a better place to do it. I understand your feeling 'selfish', as I have felt the same about my husband's situation (albeit it's better than yours) but I think it's only natural to worry about the effect on you as well as him. It will take some time to process this and come to terms with it. 

I wish you both all the best and hope you can find the strength to make the most of the precious time you are able to spend together. xx

I’m sorry to hear this and that you are struggling . It’s ok to feel angry and cheated . Is there a treatment plan or is it palliative ?. The prognosis is just a number , we are all different . I was told 12-18 months 2 and 1/2 years ago and I’m currently in remission, back at work and going on holiday soon. We Always live from one scan to the next obviously. Don’t let tomorrow ruin your today 

There are lots of trials going on out there but it takes a bit  of research 

It all feels very surreal to me too.  I cannot quite comprehend that in 6-12 months I will probably not be here. I am asymptomatic which makes it harder for me and my loved ones to believe too. Like you I am very aware that there are things I am doing or seeing for the last time.

Years ago I supported my dying husband. My advice to you is not to grieve before he has gone. 

Completely understandable and I can only unfortunately say that I feel similarly. My husband has been given 12 months with treatment and is just about to start chemo for the 4th time. We too are talking about end of life things but it does all feel surreal. I’m trying to just go with whatever feelings come up which at the moment is crying at the slightest thing! 
sending you strength xx