hello after such a long 2half years its beaten my husband we went through 6 months of chemo than some how did not see he had a lump in lower bowel which meant no op could be done so got offered auto immune that's was another six months of treatment than pills and can honest say waste he put up with it all than this year that treatment ended and it kept it at bay not cured but it was so small that he was finally able to get around than some how he got delayed appts and it grew as they left pass 12 weeks to late to put back on .and now we face nothing no hope just time that was worse she said sorry u fought well but how long do u think we have bearing in mind its may October time but not charismas i want to know why we waited for a mri nearly 5 months got told busy what crap they didn't book it by time they did it had grew so feeling lost how hell do I cope never mind him coping all that time he never really had easy through it all so we just don't talk well I don't I lost we been married 49 years be 50 if lucky it around in September we have nurses soon which i know i will not talk to , he also wants die at home which 1 more reason im lost because that a no to me i could not ever step in the room again how to people move on from this all i keep looking at things he has sort out like is crap tools run down freezer's want want 2 when he gone stupid things like that but when u do think all i do sit cry my self to sleep i want scream at someone how do live with little time oh i know day by day but I've lost interest in garden i things we did we use to enjoy traveling not huge mile's away just areas near us but i cannot get the feeling to even bother now just how does one find things to talk about now
