Hi everyone. My mum was told just before Xmas she had a solid lump in her lung, had PET scan last week and was told this week (and shown on the screen) about another area that’s lit up on the scan. It’s in the oesophogus. Mum was shaking and I felt I was in a trance. My mums health has been deteriorating for a few years, she’s 85 and had a heart attack during lockdown, has been suffering with vertigo for about 5 years and nauseas for months. She’s had numerous CT scans, tests and had regular blood tests as she’s had Essential Thrombocythemia (blood disease) for 14 yrs and nothing was ever flagged up until now! You can imagine with all these problems this feels like the last straw. I have done nothing but cry since Tuesday, my stomach is constantly turning over, I have no appetite and just cannot bear the thought of my life without her. I lost my dad 6 years ago and was devastated but this seems to be a whole lot harder yet I love them both the same, I simply don’t know how on this earth i can cope with this nightmare. Mum has to have an endoscopy today and my brother is taking her as I just can’t face it. She lives alone but I’ve had her stay with me this weekend, I want to see her as much as I can but I work Mon - Fri. I’m a Nan myself to 7 grandchildren and in my late 50s but I feel like child myself in this situation. Anyone else had these feelings?
