Hi ..story so far … went to the doctors on 15th October .. I had been having trouble swallowing for a few weeks and then noticed my poo had turned jet black !!! I’m glad it did because I’m not sure I would of gone to the doctors if it hadn’t 19th October COVID test at the hospital for pre Bronchoscopy … 20th October Self isolation and blood test … 21st Bronchoscopy … after the procedure the Dr said that he needed to see me after he had finished all his patience (alarm bells started ringing) I went and sat in the recovery room when I noticed that all the other patients were all coming out and going home (more alarm bells) I was then asked if I wanted to phone my wife so she could also come in with me for the meeting with the Dr ( deafening alarm bells now ) it was in this meeting that he told us that he had found a tumour 3-4 cm and that I would need to have a CT scan to see if it had spread anywhere else (devastating news for both of us..I think initially I took it better than my wife) and this would be within 2 weeks .. the next day 22nd October I had the CT scan !!!!..everything has happened sooo fast which is good of course….now it’s just a waiting game to see what the scan has revealed…as like everyone who has been told such news your world is turned on it’s head …. They are having their meeting about what steps they are going to take next … just wish I could stop my brain thinking the worst .. can’t sleep properly but always tired ..and now getting palpitations which I’m putting down as stress ..sound familiar??? My fingers and toes are crossed for myself and everyone else x
Hi. I'm in exactly the same position. Devastated at first, petrified trying to absorb it all and yes, sleepless nights, palpitations (stress) I then remembered a film I watched, "Bridge of spies" I know it's only a film, but when a double agent was caught, he was told that he would probably face the firing squad. When asked why he was so calm and didn't look worried, he simply replied "Why? Would it help if I was?" That clip from that film has stuck firmly with me and helped me to navigate the next procedures. It is as others have said, a positive attitude that will make this journey more easier to travel.
Thanks steraw for taking the time to reply … I do try and stay positive as you say .. but then have massive dips ..supposed this is just human nature … I think that when I know what I’m facing it will get easier to be positive
I know where you are at the moment, regarding the rush of feelings going through your mind. I was shaking to pieces when I was first told (adrenaline kicking in I think) I still have drops in esteem, but as soon as I start to feel that way, I go for a walk along a wooded canal path. It is totally void of people and traffic. I just take in the natural sounds around me. Some people react differently. They need human contact/support to help them through. I honestly have found a more calm and mentally satisfying state of mind just by taking those walks away from a noise polluted every day event. I know it may be that I'm successfully blocking out the reality of it all, but hey, if it stops me from worrying, then it' must be doing me some good.
I'm going through this too. Have had scans, was diagnosed very similar to yours..but had official diagnosis 2 weeks later. I can't eat due to the growth but I also feel 'sick' with nerves. I can't sleep, hard to stop head going when all quiet. Have my 1st appointment to see Cancer Consultant on Tuesday morning. Part of my NEEDS to know, the other part is soo scared that there are more tumours. There are soo many people going through this...
Hi 987 yeah I know how you’re feeling .. good luck for Tuesday … if you feel ok about it would you let me know how you get on ?
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