MDT results

Yes, you can do this! 

I have very recently been exactly where you are. You wouldn't be human I don't think if you weren't scared and apprehensive, I know I was. And it came around the same time as you are at now. When I first found out about my cancer I was very much 'Ok I can deal with this, it's just a blip' but then the demons start setting in and some days for me were very tough. But I have found that having a treatment plan and knowing a bit more about what lies ahead has helped me hugely mentally. A bit less 'grey' and more black and white. 

I had my first FLOT chemo session last week so I'm now more focussed on that side of things than worrying about anything else. Hopefully you will find that actually having a treatment plan will focus your mind differently. 

There is no doubt this is a massive rollercoaster and no two days are the same. Some days are better than others. I just keep telling myself that I CANNOT give up as I have too many people that care about me so I'm doing it for them as much as myself. 

Stay strong, you will get through this. 

Good luck with your results

Deb