So here we are 27 days after my post about the recurrence.
The cancer mets are not the only problem …… the hernia repair has not worked and Chris’s post op conduit is pretty much blocked by a loop of bowel. Nothing they can do. He can’t eat but after a fight a Ryles drain has been fitted to bypass the gastric system and he can get comfort from drinking. My beautiful man is skeletal and can barely move from a recliner. Talking is such hard work except to say how much he loves me and doesn’t want to leave. District nurses come every day to replace syringe driver and give any top up jabs day or night.
I can’t begin to describe the overwhelming sorrow and heartbreak I’m experiencing. It is often too much to bear. He is still fighting but it is futile.
Geraldine 
I’ve had a bad day ….. don’t usually share a post like that but sadness has overwhelmed me today ….. reality hits I guess
