Hello, I have done my bio from the advice of Sarah. 
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I had a call today (already agreed to finding out by phone because I live far from the hospital) that confirmed I have cancer, just not sure on where it is or the extent yet.
I have an MRI tomorrow late afternoon. With the hope of knowing more by the end of the week 
When the Macmillan nurse called she mentioned my children, and that they were at ages that they’d probably pick up on things. It was at this point I cried. Because I have no idea how to tell them or even if I do tell them? They are going to notice all the hospital journeys etc, they already see me poorly.
They are at a crucial point at the moment returning to school after being home ed for quite a few years.
It’s all decided to happen now. I’m just wondering does anyone here have any advice? Thank you X
I’m just really tired if I’m honest SarahH21 i think it’s all catching up with me. But I’ll have loads of time to do nothing when this is all done. That’s the plan anyway 
My first brachy is done and out the way, it wasn’t the nicest thing I’ve ever had to do, the day staff were brilliant the night staff, particularly the guy that was dealing with me was horrendous, he was leaving me hours without my pain medication, left me in tears and slammed the door when I was asking for it. When my oncologist and brachy nurse found out they weren’t happy. And the day staff told me he was agency and wouldn’t be allowed on the ward again after that. They checked the records and saw that my pain wasn’t being managed as it should under him.
I’m currently sat waiting for my room to start the second lot of brachy and so not looking forward to it as can be expected after last week but it’s got to be done and it was a one off blip.
Wednesday can’t come quick enough xx
Sarajazzle thanks for the recommendations! The staff actually gave me a different menu ‘finger foods’ because I’d be on my back, which helped .
I just saw your post about your waiting for your results for your scan. Have you heard anything since? If not you could always give your oncologists secretary a call and explain you missed a call. I’m hoping you are left too long, waiting is the worst xxx
Oh, I’m so sorry to read you had a bad experience with a member of staff especially when you needed your pain managed. At least he won’t get back there!
Hopefully this session will go better and you will have the right care. I haven’t been through it myself so haven’t had to experience it but I’ve certainly had the occasional rogue staff in the last few years-none with my cancer care luckily. Others have been rude, unhelpful and sarcastic at times and very rough with IVs and cannulas when I’ve been hospitalised for other things. It’s shameful to be treated badly when we are so vulnerable.
You’re so close to the finish line-just focus on getting through this and then you can rest. I was exhausted throughout my treatment and when it ended, but it was so good not to have to go to hospital every day! Just take things easy-you’ve been through a lot and need time to recover your strength.
Sarah xx
Hello everyone! I just wanted to give you all a little update.
I went for my 3 month post treatment scan last month and went yesterday to see my Oncologist to find out the results…
I am now cancer free! She said she considers me cured of cancer. 
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She explained she can’t guarantee it won’t come back and that the next 2-3 years I would need to be vigilant for any new persistent worsening symptoms. But I will continue to have 3 month checks and maybe a scan once a year or if something pops up - for the next 3 years.
I’m not going to lie; this last two weeks I have been an emotional wreck; panicking about what might be with the results. Which I think my oncologist picked up on and suggested I speak to a cancer psychologist, which I think would be a good idea. It can be incredibly lonely after treatment ends and sadly your own mind can be a scary place.
I want to say a massive thank you to everyone here that’s been so supportive. There’s always someone here to reply and listen. And 9/10 it’s the lovely SarahH21 . I will stick around and hopefully give some advice and support.
Thank you ️
Hi WindyThistle
Congratulations! It’s lovely to read another positive news post, and I’m sure it will help others facing the same diagnosis and treatment.
Please don’t be a stranger-feel free to add your advice and support whenever you can as it really helps others.
Now, just get on with living your life and enjoying it all!
Sarah xx
Congratulations, That’s fantastic news! It’s a strange one isn’t it… being told such amazing news and still thinking “but are you sure?”.
I hope this is you now, and you never have to repeat any of this again. You look after yourself and put this chapter behind you.
All the best 
