Hello ladies,
I am 2 years post treatment for stage 3 cervical cancer (radiotherapy chemotherapy and brachytherapy.) I am really struggling as a 39 year old plunged into menopause, people around me just think I'm cured now and thats it but mentally i am struggling a lot, i don't recognise myself anymore & i feel like I'm grieving my old-self. I can’t be the only one to feel like this? At least during treatment i was told what I needed to do where I needed to be but now i just feel completely lost, anxious & sad not to mention completely traumatised.
Im looking for support groups to speak to people who have been through the same, there are none so I have joined this forum x
They did say after brachytherapy that I had a fistula which could heal itself- week 5&6 I was so happy as I was gaining control and only needed light pads in the day then the past 2 weeks have been ridiculous. I find my GP very frustrating , I saw the nurse last Thursday who done a dip test and told me I had a water infection yet the GP called me the next day and told me I do not have a water infection. I have suffered all over Christmas with burning when I wee and throbbing which is sore and uncomfortable.
with all the issues I’m having I feel like I have gone back to square one and today I have woke up with a full blown cold- great- everyday is another thing to deal with.
I also suffer with constipation and my GP gave me iron tablets which have made that worse so now I have stopped them and back to normal energy again.
sorry for sounding so miserable x
Ah, I didn’t realise you had a fistula-I’ve not had one but many of my friends have so I know from them that they can be difficult to deal with. As things are getting worse, not better, I really think you should be getting this checked again in case it’s not healing properly-they can be tricky to deal with.
I would definitely speak with your cancer treating team rather than trying to deal with the gp- in my own experience the gp doesn’t have enough experience to deal with post cancer treatment issues-when mine diagnosed me over the phone with a urine infection he was very wrong and I ended up in an ambulance and had 9 days in hospital so I don’t really have faith in them. That hasn’t been my only issue with my gp surgery by any means.
As you are still not long out from treatment, my first port of call would be your CNS who will know if you need to see your consultant. Please don’t continue to suffer like this as fistulas can get worse if left.
Sarah xx
Thanks Sarah- I have a phone appointment on 2.1.25 with my consultant- I’ll mention it to her then. I also worry because they said they was not sending me home with the dialaters as this will help the fistula heal but now I panic about my vaginal wall closing- which they said it can do! I just cannot bear the thought of any more poking and prodding or surgery or treatment- it gets me in such a tizz.
I messaged my CNS but she is in anual leave.
It really does feel like u have been dumped and left to crack on after treatment.
So many side effects- I feel the recovery is worse than the treatment! And the waiting to know if it’s all worked or not is very stressful.
I can understand why you’re so worried but can also appreciate their thinking on the dilators-it’s a very difficult situation for you to be in.
It’s true that there’s a possibility of things closing up in there and the dilators do help keep things open for internal examinations etc. However, the fistula getting worse would be a bigger concern for me at this point.
I hated getting poked and prodded after treatment ended-it felt I’d had enough of that to last a lifetime! However, if I hadn’t had proper check ups after treatment, my recurrence wouldn’t have been spotted as there were no scans for me after my 3 month post treatment mri, and I had no symptoms. So I am very grateful for those checks.
I hope that you will be seen in person at some point-I’m assuming you will be after your scan happens, as phone consultations are not always the best way to know what’s going on.
Sarah xx
So pleased I saw your comment as you’ve described exactly how I feel etc.
I am grateful for still being here and I know things could have been so very different but it feels like I’ve been kicked in the stomach and had the wind knocked out of me as it’s such a shock going through it all.
Some days I could punch people who say ‘ are you not back at work yet it’s been a few months since your hysterectomy and brachytherapy treatment stopped.
I do get tired still and out of breath but I don’t know if that’s part of the stuff I’ve been through or because I’m not as active as I was previously and that’s the reason…
Some days I feel like I’m 90 not 59 .. other days I think ‘sod it im going to paint the back gate and kick myself up the backside’ … I did that yesterday and today feel like I’ve been battered by a truck
Then I start worrying is it because something is wrong .. rather than it being muscles I’ve not used in a while just aching.
I lost a friend at Christmas.. she had breast cancer 8 years ago and been fine ever since .. long story short she thought she had a chest infection, went to the hospital and gave her 3 months
That was the Thursday they told her 3 months so she planned on doing loads of things when she could … Got a message the Sunday from her brother saying Alison had died in her sleep only 58 ..
Cant stop thinking about that as she was brilliant when I got diagnosed and it happened so suddenly with her .. within 3 weeks..
Someone said something about secondary cancer .. now I can’t get that out my head either even tho a completely different type of cancer etc. I’m sure people don’t mean to say stuff like that but it does get your head overthinking stuff
Be nice to have one day not hearing or thinking about cancer
Take care xx
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