So scared. Cannot eat or sleep. Please help with some advice.

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Evening all, I’m new here. Last year I my smear test result showed HPV but normal cells. The nurse told me not to worry as the HPV would clear but they would call me in for another smear in a year. It has now been exactly a year and after sex I noticed dark bleeding for a day for the first time ever. I was so scared because I know this is a sign. I rang my doctor for an emergency appointment and was given one, luckily. However, the female doctor was a complete bitxh, she made me feel awful and took some swabs. She said my cervix looked ok but was inflamed with some small blood spots. She couldn’t see a tumour. I have now been fast tracked to see a specialist in two weeks. Does anyone have any advice on this? I’m sooo scared, I can’t eat or sleep. I’ve told my husband and he is making things worse by worrying. The kids are beginning to notice. Please could you offer me any advice. I feel like complaining about the gp because she was awful. 
Thanking anyone for any advice in advance. 

  • Hi  

    How are you doing? Hope you’re ok.

    Sarah xx


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  • Hi Sarah,

    My consultant called me this morning giving me the all clear. However, he is concerned about my HPV and wants me to come in for regular check ups. I am happy and I will count my blessings. However, Prayknow I have HPV and it’s high risk so I am now thinking that I need to get checked every 6 months and will talk to my consultant about this. I’ve learnt so much through this group and the kind advicPrayfrom you and others. I’m now thinking that there needs to be far more awareness of HPV and its link to CC. And CC in general. I’m at work and getting on with it but my thoughts are with everyone on Prayis site PrayPrayPray

  • Hi  

    I’m so glad you’ve had such positive news! I’m sure your consultant will be able to advise on the frequency of the future check ups you will need, and these will hopefully be able to reassure you. Sometimes high risk hpv is persistent and hard to clear, and as there is no cure the best thing is regular monitoring to ensure it is not causing harmful cell changes. 

    I do agree there needs to be more education around hpv, but I’m not sure how that can be achieved. There is unfortunately still a stigma attached to it which is hard to dispel. 

    I’m very pleased for you, and appreciate you coming back to let us know how you’ve got on. Very best wishes for your future health checks!

    Sarah xx


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  • Hi Nina78

    Great to hear your good news.  I've done quite a bit of awareness raising since my cc diagnosis in 2017.  It can be something as simple as putting up a poster or fact sheet on a notice board (with permission of course) e.g. at a work place, a library etc. On a couple of occasions I've put out a display of information on a small table in my local library during cervical screening week - this week as it happens.  If you wish you can download suitable information for free from the Jo's Trust website e.g. www.jostrust.org.uk/.../download-only-mini-factsheet-hpv

    I was diagnosed with stage 2A squamous cell cervical cancer (node negative) in 2017 following symptoms: persistent, watery, yellow vaginal discharge then post-menopuasal bleeding.  My treatment was a radical hysterectomy followed by chemo-radiotherapy.  My long term side effects include lymphoedema and urinary retention which I manage with intermittent self catheterisation.