So it's been about a year since I was told I had cervical cancer
I've become so emotional and just seem to cry at any moment or anything. Father's day was a bad day as I no longer speak to my dad (his choose) and so he doesn't know about my cancer and the hell of a year I've had.
When I try and talk about my emotions I feel embarrassed or silly for feeling what I'm feeling. I've gone through so much this last year.. cancer, daughter going to uni hundreds of miles away, not been able to help her pack or move up there (was still recovering from the operation), not being able to go back to a job I love (carer), not being able to be mobile like before.
My partner is surprised when we see the professionals that I say I'm still low and cry as he doesn't see me crying as I wait until he leaves or hide my tears. I still haven't contacted anyone as I've always dealt with my emotions myself or spoke to friends but as I can't do as much as use to I don't go out now without partner.
I also feel no one will understand as they haven't been through it so the support I need I need to seek.
Thank you for reading X
Thank you Sarah
Hi Debmer and welcome to the group.
I wasn’t sure if your post was meant to be a reply to me or to Peace73 as I can see from her post that it looks like she is signing off with the name Sarah. Hopefully she will see your post and you’ll be able to chat to her.
I think what you’re feeling is very normal-you went through a lot in a short space of time, and a cancer diagnosis is a lot to process. At first we’re just having to go through whatever treatment we need to do, and sometimes it only hits us later when we are trying to come to terms with what has happened.
It can be difficult to talk to family and friends, because as much as they can sympathise and support us, they don’t and can’t really understand what this is like for us. It’s natural to worry about the cancer returning, but we can’t let that thought dominate or we miss out on living.
It really might help now both to have support here in the group, and to get some professional counselling to work through your feelings. If you wanted to do that, please call the Macmillan support line and have a chat with them-the number is in my signature.
I hope you’ll find it helpful to be here with us and that Peace73 will see this and chat with you. Thank you for completing your profile details-this is very useful for other ladies to be able to see where you’re at. Feel free to ask about anything in the group-it’s a safe place to talk about fears and feelings with those who understand.
Sarah xx
Hi Sonnie01 and welcome to the group
I don’t think I’ve seen you post before, so perhaps you’d like to join the group and tell us a little about yourself? It’s helpful if you can add a little detail to your profile so we know what has brought you here, and you don’t have to repeat yourself in posts.
If we can help in any way, just ask any questions you’d like, or use the group to share your feelings.you are welcome to be with us.
Sarah xx
