Following an infection and MRI, cancer has been found at the top of my cervix. A consultant told me an operation is not the answer and it’s not ‘new’. She told me that I need a PET scan to see if the cancer has spread. They are not sure if it’s in my lymph nodes - MRI of my pelvis showered the lymph nodes enlarged but did state that it could have been the infection. I’m very afraid and my mind is racing…. I had a biopsy but the nurse called and said they couldn’t get anything from the biopsy and could have just been scar tissue. I had a LLETZ procedure in 2019 to remove pre cancerous cells and my smears after that have been clear. Last one in 2023. This has hit me out the blue. No pain during sex or bleeding. Periods irregular for 6/7 months but put it down to menopause…. I’m so incredibly afraid that the cancer has spread and my mind races a lot to the worst case and death…. I’ve yet to have my scan and now a biopsy taken under general anaesthetic. I’ve got a good family and I’m trying to stay positive but it’s soo hard. I’m trying not to google but I’m not sleeping, my mind races to thoughts of my young children not having a mum and it’s breaking me. I’m 44 this year and I’d like to think I’m strong and healthy. How do I cope with this being in limbo and how do I gain strength to deal with this? Anyone else had similar?
