Hello I’m hoping that one of you lovely community member can reassure me or advise me.
it’s a long story so I’m really sorry.
I was raped in 2016, and after lots of painful examination etc was advised I had The hpv virus, it was never fully explained to me at the time and with everything else I had going on I never fully looked in to what it was. I also avoided smears, as mad as it may sound Now and I feel stupid for saying it, I didn’t want anyone down there doing that again until was ready. Just before Xmas of this year I plucked up the courage and went for my smear, the nurse started by talking me though hpv and I told her I already knew I had this, I explained my situation to her and she fully understood. She took the smear and advised me I may be called for a smear ever year. My results came back telling me I had CIN 2 high grade cells and hpv, I was booked in for colposcopy. I went on jan 26th. Nothing was explained to me, the doctor became angry when I told her me and my husband were trying for a baby for the last 18 months. Told me to stop immediately and use condoms until I had a 12 month clear smear test. I told her about my rape and that I know suffer with PTSD and that I do experience pain in sex but I thought it was psychological. During my colposcopy she didn’t speak or explain anything to me, I had some massive stabbing pains to which I looked up, she had blood all over her Tools, and she shouted at me to put my head down and look at the wall. I was crying by this point. She then stopped and said she was stopping the procedure as she could see any high grade cells so she had taken a couple of punch biopsy’s. I asked if it meant that i was ok and had no high grade cells she said “no” I asked her what that meant and she repeated again the bit above to me again. She said I would get my results in the post and again stressed condoms to be used from now on. that was all I was told
now 3 weeks later I’ve had a letter but with any results just a generic letter telling me to come for a colposcopy in 4 weeks time? I’m so totally confused! And a bit upset about the way the dr was and the support I’ve received, also I’ve had some terrible nightmares since where my husband tells me I’m screaming in my sleep! I’m so sorry for long post. Thanks so much for your time x
