Feeling blahhhhh

Hi there, how are you now?  Sorry to hear you broke a finger and had a cough on top of everything else.  Just wanted to say hello and join in the blaaaaaaah feeling.  Often I don't know what exactly I feel, such a rollercoaster.  I think half the time I am in denial...

Hey,

Don't beat yourself up my darling, we are aloud as many moaning sessions we like. Ever likely your feeling the way yo are, you've got a lot going on at the moment. Hopefully any day now you'll be feeling much better. Always remember to make time for you and don't beat yourself up. Big Hugs even though they are only virtual. Xx

Hi Cdaniel, great way of looking at it, 'being allowed as many moaning sessions as we like'.  Do you do that, moan, I mean? Who to, familiy and friends or rather online or therapist?  

I mainly moan to myself and my Hubby. I know it's so difficult. I had Chemo when I was first diagnosed in 2016 and had 1 bad week straight after having it, had it on a Monday by time Friday came along started to pick up, had a bath every Saturday night and asked my Hubby to sit in the bathroom with me. Without fail I cried every time and apologised every time for not helping around the house or the kids for that week. I know it was so silly but I did it anyway. Just 2 months off my 5 year remission I have found out it has returned in the same breast, exactly same place. Had the lump removed on the 13th May just waiting for the results to see if I need more Chemo. XX

Hello everyone.. 

Thankyou.. still feeling a little down but I am sure it's because I am just feeling unwell.

There are so many nasty bugs going around at the moment..does help my immune system is really low..but I will get there.. 

I have had breast cancer for some years now and consider myself to be alive and still around and intend to do that for a lot longer..

It's been 17 years maybe 18 since my breast cancer.. then had secondary in my neck which I found by luck ( the same as my breast cancer ) 18months later.. then quite a space before the next visit from this uninvited visitor..who keeps going on vacations around my body. Found in lymph nodes under my arm but had to be left as too close to a large blood vessel and was stable..

Then the uninvited  guest appeared in my colon again buyluck tests were done and it was found .Now on different treatment which is holding it.. and my marker has dropped so whoop whoop may this continue. So that is one of my positives..

More positive

Still hair some hair

Managed to put some weight on

Have my family. 

So i am a lucky person

As I an unable to do knitting or much I have been completing my granddaughter EHC request application which has kept me busy for a couple of days.. Done the letter which is complete and just waiting for my eldest lad to take a look at the request form amend and check and wait for his reply as to whether more information needs adding.. 

After this I will have to find something else to keep myself busy and distracted.. it's the way forward for me..

Hope everyone else is doing well and things are moving forward in a positive way..

Cyber hugs for all of you and thanks again