So l met my oncologist today. Signed my paperwork and was handed notes about the drugs I’ll be having.
Phase 1 - 12 weeks
phase 2 - 12 weeks
surgery
phase 3 - several months
no date yet to start the treatment but l need another ultrasound on my neck as I’ve found a lump there following a FNA of the lymph nodes which came back clear of any cancer.
so not as bad as thought the appointment was going to be. However, not being given a date for when this starts is a bit of a let down!
jen 
Welcome to the forum - a place where no-one wants to be, of course.
Great news that the FNA came back clear and hopefully this means that the lump on your neck is ok and just one of those 'lumps and bumps' that we get and would never even think about if we hadn't had/got breast cancer!
I guess there's no start date as yet because investigations are still ongoing, but rest assured it doesn't develop overnight and they know what they are doing and pleased to hear your appointment was better than you feared.
I found that throughout all of my breast cancer, the fear of the treatment etc was far, far worse than the actual treatment itself - although I didn't need chemo., just a lumpectomy and radiotherapy and tablets for 5 years - so I had it a lot easier than the chemotherapy route. I'm about 8 years post diagnosis now - it's amazing how quick the time has gone!
Good luck with your treatment when you start it and I hope it goes as well as it possible could go.
Kindest wishes, Lesley
Thank you for your reply! It’s good to know all the stories of each and everyone on this forum. It’s definitely not what l was expecting to be facing this year! I work for the ambulance service and l am the one normally caring for patients! Not the other way around
♀️ I’m trying to take each day as it comes. Staying positive and continuing day to day activities for as long as l can until treatment starts.
l just don’t like the waiting!!!!
Well, things are moving on. Today l get a picc line fitted and l start treatment on Thursday!
I'm getting a bit nervous!!!
I’m having a meal out tomorrow night with my 2 best friends to signify the end of my old normal and to celebrate my new normal. Wish me luck
Jen
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Yes, the very best of luck. Hopefully when it's all over your new normal will also be your old normal 
I must admit for a few years, I felt very different about life, but now 8 years later I very rarely think about having had cancer - the only thing that reminds me is the radiotherapy tattoos and the scar on my breast (I had 80mm chopped out, so quite a big scar). But other than this, it's not often on my mind and I feel similar now to how I did before I was diagnosed.
Enjoy your meal with your friends tomorrow!
Kindest wishes, Lesley
Absolutely love this. This gives hope to us all that one day we will feel like us again ️
Thank you
sending love and hugs to all️️
