Struggling, can’t stop crying. Feel like no light at the end of the tunnel!

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Diagnosed with triple negative breast cancer in November. So far I have had 4 of my PC treatments and 2 immunotherapy (I had reactions to both paclataxil and pembro) and I am struggling with anxiety.

I can’t stop crying and can’t see an end to all this. I have another 8 of these treatments then 4 EC cycles before surgery and then more radiotherapy/chemo/immunotherapy.

Ive heard EC is worse than PC and I’m struggling with this. I don’t know if I can cope! Even the 6 months to surgery seems a million miles away.

I have a fiance and good support network but I feel so lonely like nobody understands what I’m going through and I’m just sitting each day willing the day away.

I spoke to MacMillan but didn’t feel like I got a lot from it. They told me what I’m feeling is normal and not to be so hard on myself etc but I know all this but don’t know how to deal with my emotions and get through it. I am usually a strong person and don’t know what’s happened to me, all I do is mope and cry Cry 

How do I get through this?!

  • Re the port - once the wound is healed it is sterile so can be submerged. I swam and did aqua classes throughout chemo with a port. Your immunity will be impacted (especially when you switch to EC) so you might want to be careful of the risk of picking up a virus in a busy environment. My oncologist was generally supportive of exercise but you may find caution rules if you ask the question. For me, the mental health benefit outweighed other considerations. 

  • Thanks for this. I have been given conflicting advice.

    i only swim during adult lane swimming sessions so not too busy/crowded. May give it a go but not been for around 6 weeks so won’t be able to do as much anyway. May just help mental health?! Can’t hurt hey?! X