I noticed this when I had breast cancer 18 years ago and now it's happening again. I had my diagnosis last Thursday. Small grade 2 invasive ductal carcinoma, 7.6mm, er+8 pr+8. No reason to think that it's spread but CT scan tomorrow to make sure.
So, I've been pretty much ok with this. Feel like it's very treatable and resigned to a mastectomy as it's the same breast as last time. Obviously I'd rather not have rejoined the club but I was coping with the news - upset and a little scared with just the occasional meltdown but overall, coping.
This evening my body has gone doolally! I have shooting pains in both breasts. I have a huge lump in my throat which has been there for a little while but today has got so much worse and is scaring me. I have pains in my upper and lower back and have convinced myself that it's liver / kidney / lung related. My logical head tells me that these are psychological pains but my logical head is starting to lose the battle and I'm becoming more convinced that I have mets.
Why do our minds do this to us? It's so unfair! I've suffered quite badly, although only sporadically, with health anxiety since I last had bc and I'm pretty sure that's what this is - because of the scan tomorrow - but that isn't stopping the dark thoughts. I have to keep trying to remind myself that my skills of self diagnosis have always been appalling in the past.
Sorry for the rant - I feel better for getting that off my chest - no pun intended!
Had anybody else had these horrible psycho pains?
