Breast cancer

Hello Lorri, 

I too was just diagnosed last week.  High grade DCIS, too extensive for a lumpectomy, so I'm also having a Mastectomy. Its a huge shock, and just like you I feel like I'm standing outside looking in at someone else.

My husband has been amazing, but he's had his moments too!

I'm not ready to talk, not to anyone. Ive deliberately avoided going out, and I've only told a few people. 

This is your cancer, and you have to prioritise yourself, I'm sure you'll find the words when you're ready. I hope I will.

Don't be to hard on yourself, and just take your time!

Much love,

Joyce x

Hi there

I kind of felt like I was in a bit of a whirlwind after diagnosis as everything happened very quickly plus I received the news the week before starting a new job so it was hard to take a minute to process everything. Then there were other people's feelings and reactions to deal with on top of that. I tried to cope by keeping everything as normal as possible, telling everyone I was fine and just cracking on with what needed to be done.

Then one day, about two weeks after diagnosis, I just broke down in tears and cried solidly for half the day. I felt a lot better for it and approached things much differently after that.

From what you've said, I would say don't force yourself to try to identify and name how you feel. In fact, not knowing how you feel is actually how you feel right now! I would explain this to your husband, make sure he knows you appreciate his support and tell him you will talk when you're ready. 

I hope this helps and wish you all the best for your upcoming surgery. x