New - awaiting biopsy result

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Hi all

I am firstly sorry for you all needing to be here. 

Just had my biopsy. I asked percentage chance of having cancer. She said the lump is small. When you come back prepare yourself for the worse. Told me it hadnt spread to my left lymph node (great) and it would be lumpectomy and radiotherapy. I dont want radiotherapy. Any other options?  Got to wait until 6th Jan because of Xmas. I just never thought this would happen to me. I am in shock, angry, feel so out of control. If I could afford private it would be sorted before Xmas. I work so hard and can barely pay rent let alone go private. I am worried the cells from the biopsy will now spread around my body. I am scared. I am single and a carer to my disabled elderly mum. Dont know how I will cope after op / during radiotherapy. How am I going to work? Everyone relies on me. Sorry. Spiralling. Any advice welcome x

  • Hello Julia you are one step ahead of as I am new here too and still awaiting an appointment for my biopsy etc.I can't believe I'm here now either I don't want it to be true nobody should be here.My mind is all over the place too sometimes calm then sometimes fearing the very worst.Then having to tell family and friends and upsetting and worrying them.I delayed going to see my G.P because I was a carer too for my Mum when she came out of hospital and was at home until she sadly died in May this year.I was exhausted physically and mentally so although I had a lump I just couldn't deal with it then like you I was needed at home.Now I'm scared I left it too long I already feel like my life is not my ownanymore and I am angry too .This has beena terrible year I am grieving for my Mumand now this.I think we should try not to look too far ahead and frighten ourselves too much.I reach out a hand to you. 

    Best Wishes. X

  • Hi  

    You have nothing to apologise for. You’ve just had a huge shock, no wonder you are spiralling. When we find out we have, or likely to have, cancer it’s natural to jump to worst case scenarios and think the worst. I’m sure most people will agree that this is the worst part and you will feel better when you know for sure either way and have your treatment plan. 

    It was a complete shock when I was diagnosed last year too. I had a lumpectomy and radiotherapy last year and now taking tamoxifen. None of these have been anywhere near as bad as I had feared. Once you know more I am sure the lovely people here will be able to give support and advice. x 

  • Hey, I am truly sorry you are going through this too. I honestly think you made the right choice for yourself at a very difficult time. I am so sorry you lost your Mum. Sending my love to you. I will say this...the staff were so very kind and looked after me at my biopsy. It wasn't my idea of fun but it didn't hurt more than having a blood test. It is stabbing a bit now the anaesthetic has worn off but not too bad. I was very scared and cried but they really looked after me. If someone can drive you I would suggest it as my head was spinning and I wouldn't have been safe driving home. I was meant to have my mammogram Jan but the machine was broken. My lump hadn't grown much since e that time so your delay most likely wont be a bad thing. Thankyou for your understanding and kind words. You are not alone either. I will be with you on our journey. I will try just thinking about today. I guess none of us know what tomorrow will bring. Thinking of you x

  • Bless you x Thankyou for your kind words and sharing your experience. You're right. Once I know when and where and the details I will feel more in control. How are you doing now? I hope you're ok. X

  • I am doing great, thank you! I am happy, healthy and loving life. I know it’s scary, but many many people get through this and back to their normal life. This was something I didn’t think was possible and really needed to hear last year. x 

  • That is fantastic news Slight smile I am so happy for you. You are amazing and the positive messages are so helpful. Hopefully. X Have a great Christmas.