New - awaiting biopsy result

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Hi all

I am firstly sorry for you all needing to be here. 

Just had my biopsy. I asked percentage chance of having cancer. She said the lump is small. When you come back prepare yourself for the worse. Told me it hadnt spread to my left lymph node (great) and it would be lumpectomy and radiotherapy. I dont want radiotherapy. Any other options?  Got to wait until 6th Jan because of Xmas. I just never thought this would happen to me. I am in shock, angry, feel so out of control. If I could afford private it would be sorted before Xmas. I work so hard and can barely pay rent let alone go private. I am worried the cells from the biopsy will now spread around my body. I am scared. I am single and a carer to my disabled elderly mum. Dont know how I will cope after op / during radiotherapy. How am I going to work? Everyone relies on me. Sorry. Spiralling. Any advice welcome x

  • Hello Julia you are one step ahead of as I am new here too and still awaiting an appointment for my biopsy etc.I can't believe I'm here now either I don't want it to be true nobody should be here.My mind is all over the place too sometimes calm then sometimes fearing the very worst.Then having to tell family and friends and upsetting and worrying them.I delayed going to see my G.P because I was a carer too for my Mum when she came out of hospital and was at home until she sadly died in May this year.I was exhausted physically and mentally so although I had a lump I just couldn't deal with it then like you I was needed at home.Now I'm scared I left it too long I already feel like my life is not my ownanymore and I am angry too .This has beena terrible year I am grieving for my Mumand now this.I think we should try not to look too far ahead and frighten ourselves too much.I reach out a hand to you. 

    Best Wishes. X

  • Hi  

    You have nothing to apologise for. You’ve just had a huge shock, no wonder you are spiralling. When we find out we have, or likely to have, cancer it’s natural to jump to worst case scenarios and think the worst. I’m sure most people will agree that this is the worst part and you will feel better when you know for sure either way and have your treatment plan. 

    It was a complete shock when I was diagnosed last year too. I had a lumpectomy and radiotherapy last year and now taking tamoxifen. None of these have been anywhere near as bad as I had feared. Once you know more I am sure the lovely people here will be able to give support and advice. x 

  • Hey, I am truly sorry you are going through this too. I honestly think you made the right choice for yourself at a very difficult time. I am so sorry you lost your Mum. Sending my love to you. I will say this...the staff were so very kind and looked after me at my biopsy. It wasn't my idea of fun but it didn't hurt more than having a blood test. It is stabbing a bit now the anaesthetic has worn off but not too bad. I was very scared and cried but they really looked after me. If someone can drive you I would suggest it as my head was spinning and I wouldn't have been safe driving home. I was meant to have my mammogram Jan but the machine was broken. My lump hadn't grown much since e that time so your delay most likely wont be a bad thing. Thankyou for your understanding and kind words. You are not alone either. I will be with you on our journey. I will try just thinking about today. I guess none of us know what tomorrow will bring. Thinking of you x

  • Bless you x Thankyou for your kind words and sharing your experience. You're right. Once I know when and where and the details I will feel more in control. How are you doing now? I hope you're ok. X

  • I am doing great, thank you! I am happy, healthy and loving life. I know it’s scary, but many many people get through this and back to their normal life. This was something I didn’t think was possible and really needed to hear last year. x 

  • That is fantastic news Slight smile I am so happy for you. You are amazing and the positive messages are so helpful. Hopefully. X Have a great Christmas. 

  • Hello Julia how are you doing today? We have sunshine here today so I have been out in my garden for a few hours tidying up and pottering about.I don't know if you are a gardener but when I was out there I forgot about all this for a while I was just thinking about Spring when it all comes to life again and I can start planting seeds in the greenhouse.It made me feel hopeful and if anyone needs that it's folks like us.I will be with you on this journey too and hopefully we can help each other along .Take care .x

  • Hiya

    It was beautiful today Grinning It was lovely to hear you were in the moment and enjoying your garden. I am sadly not green fingered and admire anyone who is! I agree, finding our moments to escape is so important for us. Mine is music, films, helping. I have been trying to meditate but its very hard. Have you tried? 

    When is your appointment? Id like to offer moral support as it is scary. Do you have someone to go with you? 

    I got a letter today saying it is high chance cancer and they just confirming and checking type. I would have preferred a Christmas card with 20 quid in it lol. 

    But I know I am not alone and its just another illness which can be treated and monitored.  I have EVERYTHING crossed you will be clear. Its not always bad news. 

    Have you got a partner? I haven't. Children? I lost Dad to cancer sadly. No pressure  to answer if too personal btw. I am still getting used to the etiquette on here. 

    Fingers crossed for another sunny day tomorrow. I would love to see your flowers when they grow. 

    Chat soon. Keep smiling Smiley 

  • Hello and Happy New Year in the circumstances it seems a stupid thing to say not much to be happy about but this year will be the year we get our cancer dealt with and we will be able to move on with our lives.Got my appointment letter from the hospital so 8th January is when I go for my mammogram, biopsy etc.I am dreading it but my lovely sister is travelling up the day before so she will be with me which is a great comfort.I have not tried meditating but do use relaxation tips as I feel very tense all the time.And I love reading which helps me escape for a while.I live here with my 86 year old Dad and my old cat Pippa.I have no partner or children.Have you heard anymore from the hospital yet about what your diagnosis is ? I wish you well with whatever you have to face next keep in touch.Very best wishes