Hi All,
Found a lump mid November, was told on December 6th it was almost certainly cancer and yesterday got confirmation that I have breast cancer which has progressed into the lymph nodes. Still don't have all of the results yet so we don't know stage or grade or what treatment I'll be getting and I won't find out until Monday. Told the family (including two kids, I'm 42 so that's a teen and pre-teen) and let work know, makes it a bit easier for all of the appointments.
I just don't seem to 'feel' it yet if you know what I mean. I know people around me are worried/upset/angry and I have grounds to be but I am emotionless about it all, other than concern about how my husband and kids are doing and a bit of frustration about the delays in getting a plan, and that's only because I can't confirm work and personal stuff I have going on early in the new year. My work have been great and just said to finish up for the year and we can figure it all out when I'm ready but I don't really want to - and I'm not a workaholic!
It's not that I'm burying my head in the sand, I've accepted I have cancer, discussed possible treatment options, know how severe it could be etc, I just don't feel anything much. Anyone else relate?
Hi. I think what you're feeling is not so unusual to be honest, we all react in different ways. I worked throughout all my treatment and was very much about needing to plan, to be in control and not to let this thing get in the way, so I totally relate. I hope you get your treatment plan soon, certainly most people cope better once they know what's going on. Best wishes
