Diagnosed yesterday,and feel guilty for feeling sad!

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Hi all.

I'm elljay,42 diagnosed with stage 2B invasive ductal carcinoma. Consultant feels that mastectomy is the best option. I accept all that. What keeps playing on my mind is he kept saying my cancer was average,and the most common type of BC.. I know he means it because its stage 2,but his words are etched into my head and I now feel guilty for being upset ,as I don't have a a higher stage.,and that i shouldn't feel upset,like his words took away my right to feel the sadness and devastation of what I was told! He was a lovely doctor,and I know his intention was for me to worry less,but I still have cancer and most likely have my breast removed!

First time on here and needed a little vent!

Thanks.xx

  • Hi  and welcome to the forum. I have found it a great place for support and shared experiences. I must like it as I’ve been rattling around the site for nearly 7 years! 

    It’s all too easy to feel guilty about having a ‘better’ stage/ kind of cancer but let’s face it, we’d all rather be in the ‘never had cancer’ club. So be kind to yourself, it’s absolutely natural to feel sad about your diagnosis. Or angry, resentful, overwhelmed - we’ve all probably felt many of these emotions during our cancer experiences. I did try to focus on the positives - small, early stage, very treatable etc - but it doesn’t take away the fact that it’s cancer and we have to have treatments that are often unpleasant. So we’re entitled to feel however we feel. 

    Vent, rant, ask questions here, it’s a safe place for a kind of support that family and friends often can’t give (and I was certainly guilty of playing down my own situation to try not to upset my nearest and dearest, you don’t have to worry about that here). Sending love and a big virtual hug, HFxx

    HappyFeet1 xx
    Don’t be afraid to cry. It will free your mind of sorrowful thoughts. – Hopi
  • stage 2 means it can go into remission with treatment. Its natural to feel sad angry guilty about all the things we should have done and didnt. what matters is what you will do differently going forward. I did my will, power of attorney, retired 6 months afterwards to make the most of my family life and try to have a life outside with friends and family. sending much love