Mastectomy with reconstructive surgery

Hi my name is Linda I am 61 years old and back in November I had routine mammogram.... I got a letter couple weeks later to go back ....

They told me had found very small lump that they needed to do a biopsy on in my left breast ... 

Couple weeks later I returned for results... it was cancer ... they talked me through the next steps which was a lumpectomy ... which although initially I was in shock ,I came to terms with ,telling myself " it was caught early, all will be fine " 

A date was set for surgery ,I in formed work who were very good and supportive about it .I had to attend breast unit for a couple of pre-surgery procedures the last one being 3 days before my plannedsurgery..  it was to I believe insert markerers and magseed . However during this appointment the Dr was running the ultrasound  over my breast for quite a while, saying nothing ,I started to get a lttle nervous and so asked if there was a problem.... I looked at her face and could tell there was ... she asked when my surgery was . . Then replied would have to cancel as had found a area on concern and needed to take another  biopsy... I then and there burst into tears .

After a wait of almost 3 weeks I returned to hospital ( my daughter-in-law came with me this time ) 

I was told yes there was another area that was cancer and best option was mastectomy... several options were discussed for reconstructive surgery but the only suitable one was with implant... again I was given a date for surgery with an appointment in between to see consultant to finalise decision.

A breastcare nurse then went through everything in detail and gave me some books etc to read ... was a lot to take in  ..

I am now at home 7 days after surgery (opted for reconstructive) and not sure how I feel ,what is next,how I will cope ... ( I live on my own ) 

Sorry seemed to ramble on for a bit ...