Waiting game.

Hi Loz 

sorry to hear you have joined the club it is a very scary time and the waiting for results is the worse part .my advice is try and keep busy as best you can . Glad you have got a supportive family and friends it does help I had a lot of visitors and did some nice things . Night time is hard as your mind goes into overdrive !! I can’t say don’t worry as I know I was terrible but much better now after having lumpectomy and now waiting for chemo plan . Good luck stay positive xx

Thanks Bonnie. I appreciate that. I am trying to stay busy, but yes you are right, night time is the worst. 

It's just the not knowing! I feel a bit of a fraud because I don't even know yet if I have breast cancer, but on the flip side I also keep thinking what else could it be. 

I have had a lump before that turned out to be a cyst, but this just feels totally different. The mass is just so hard and doesn't feel like it did before. 

I want to stay positive, but my head keeps resorting to the expect the worse scenario and if it's not cancer that is a bonus. 

Thank you so much X 

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Hi Loz

The waiting is the hardest bit - once you get the results and can understand what you’re dealing with it’s a lot easier, hope they come back to you soon.  I used the headspace app - it has meditation aimed at dealing with cancer that helped me process my thoughts while I was waiting.

Good luck, 

X

Hi Loz. Yes the waiting is the worst. To prepare yourself have a notepad and pen to hand maybe in lounge or on bedroom. That way of you think of any questions you can write them down immediately. Certainly helped me. And use here as a source of advice and support. Don't be tempted by doctor Google as it can confuse you more esp as lot of sites I found coming up were American and they use different names for drugs which is confusing. Big hugs to you xxx

sorry you are here too, the time in between is the worst. i watch instagram reels with no sound, because it requires zero brain cells, and have actually picked up a couple tips, lots of nonsense on there, but know others did crosswords to pass the empty times. yes we can keep doing, shopping, eating, family, but the quiet times it hits.

best thoughts for your results

Thank you,

Thank you. The wait is the worst. 

I had a mini meltdown the day I found out but since then, I'm like, when I know for sure I will just deal with it. 

At the moment though I feel stuck in limbo. X

Thanks for the tips. I will try some of those. X

Thanks for the tips. I totally agree, I do not need Google. I did jump on there once, but ended up feeling even worse than before. Not something I intend to do again. X