Angry!!!!!

Hi Doris71 

Sorry that you find yourself here and your emotions are totally understandable.  I was diagnosed after my first mammogram too.  It was over 5 years ago for me now, but I think I went through the whole range of emotions - anger being one of them!  I'd had a major road accident where I nearly died at 17 (and left with ongoing issues since) and felt that it was totally unfair and angry that I should have another life threatening issue.  After a time that anger has subsided and I just accept that this was the 'hand that was dealt'.  I guess I realised there was no point to being angry, frightened etc as what will be will be - and acceptance that this happened is probably the final emotion that will only come in time.

Allow yourself to be angry, disappointed, upset, frightened, grieving for your previous carefree life etc as these are totally normal emotions and once you have had time to process everything, 'moving on' will hopefully provide you that acceptance that it has happened to you and learn to live with having had cancer.

Kindest wishes, 

Lesley

Hi Lesley,

Thank you for your kind reply it was very reassuring. 
Kindest wishes,

Doris71

A diagnosis fo cancer brings so many emotions. Its a rollercoaster ride whilst we get our heads around it all.  It sounds as though you are feeling something that is very normal, and helpful in a way, as it means you are trying to process all that has happened to you and the shock of it all.  It does all settle in the end. I found talking to the macmillanhelpline really got some of those pent up emotions out and would really recommend it! xx

It sounds very much like grieving, the loss of health and all the wonderful things we just did without thinking. After my Mother died 4 yrs ago I was so angry. Took me a year to calm down. With tis I think it's quicker because we have so much to get out heads around. I just couldn't believe I didn't know sooner. I kept feeling it and telling myself it was just breast tissue even though it felt different.

H️‍it the wrong key above, maybe the heart is appropriate. Xx

Angry ! Don’t even go there girlfriend ! I was diagnosed out of the blue with cancer tumours in both breasts in September 2021 . Two years previous my sons father took his own life which was devastating for everyone that knew him and I thought ( wrongly) that having to tell my son what had happened to his Dad was the worst thing that could happen . WRONG ! 2 years later I had to tell him I had bi lateral cancer . The treatment has been a success as in Im in my first year of remission but never the less was tough with lots of set backs . I feel very angry a lot of the time . Wondering if I need to get help for this now ? At least I know there are other woman out there who feel the same way , doesn’t make me feel so alone xxx

So many things went wrong in my childhood. I don't like talking about it, my Mother nearly ending her life twice. I never wanted to feel like a victim etc. My son was born after IVF he is Autistic and Epileptic, communication difficulties. Nearly drowned in a swimming pool this year having a seizure. And now this, I have I overlooked my own health for so long it's come as a bit of a shock. 

Reading about all the potential side effects brings it all up, although they might not be as bad for some as others. All I feel is that I want to live and enjoy what's left. 66 yrs old now, used my bus pass for the first time then wham. Sitting in the Ivy on my birthday and I had hours of weird spasms in my breast. 

I think we hold things together and are oblivious to our bodies and what modern life and pressure is doing to us. I am enjoying slowing down. Stress and recovery from stress, pushing myself to do things for FOMO maybe. Or catching up on all the things I didn't do when I was working and doing parenting. Hope we all get what we need from this treatment. Just want to get on with it. Oncotype DX result next week. Group hug xxxxx

I wonder myself about counselling, I've had bits of it in the past. Finding the right person is key. Making the time is another. I had bereavement counselling after my Mother died which helped. X

I had a lovely chat with my BCN today who reassured me that feeling angry among other things is part of the process. It was reassuring to know that I wasn’t going mad!  You are not alone and please don’t ever think that you are xxx

Thank you, the fact that my mum passed away from cancer and now I have it just fuelled my fire I think. Talking to my BCN helped today. The heart was lovely ️ xx

Thank you, sharing how I feel has helped and all the lovely responses I’ve had have helped too xx